Blow Me Away.

to those who still linger in the blog, i've moved :P .... like centuries ago (exaggeration much):

www.msfaezaha.wordpress.com

I am NEVER EVER staying at Belait Hospital. EVER!

I've been busy. There's always work to do whenever I try to get some rest. But I'm not complaining :D because at least boredom is out of my list of problems! Right now, for instance, I'm accompanying my mum making a huge batch of ikan kari spesiaaaal for Tg. Dulah's return from Hajj (although i'm not really much of a help really). I don't think I've been to such occasion before so hopefully, it'd be an experience. yahoo! gonna meet nini as well :D whom i've missed so much. hehe.

Anyways, Hamdi just returned from his yet another on-call night at Belait's laboratory. and with his return came another story of ghost! experienced by Kiman (our driver). Hahaha. last week, I was FORCED to tag along Hamdi since it's dangerous for him to be alone. Apparently all other lab on-callers have been doing the same except they bring their friends or brothers over to the lab and hangout. Fortunately (for hamdi), he had ME. ME ME ME ME ME MEMEMEME!Gahh~ I couldn't understand the reason to why my being would help but in the end, I was successfully persuaded...... and in much further end, I understood why.

My experience wasn't very much of an experience... but it was DEFINITELY something and DEFINITELY a first! So it was 11pm. I was lying on the on-call bed and Hamdi on the floor. I couldn't sleep because new environment doesn't work out well for me. I read all the do'a already. And so... with my eyes shut and my brain asking me politely to sleep, I was concious of my surroundings ESPECIALLY my ears. So I started hearing children playing and talking loudly against the wall next to mine. And for few minutes, I was relieved to hear people nearby. Until... I heard HEAVY footsteps coming from the lab as if someone was running or geting chased by another person followed by children's laughter. And I thot, shit.. shit.. shit.. there's only me and Hamdi in this lab. It's just impossible impossible impossible impossible. I also heard the machines going wild... unusally noisy than it previously was. But I tried to think rationally that it functions differently during the night. Conclusion? Slept at 2.

The next day, I decided to confront Hamdi. And ONLY THEN did he start telling me the truth about the place, the fact that a lot of the workers beside Hamdi himself experienced things... like a hot nurse walking by with an old uniform who was heading to a dead-end, children laughters everywhere, curtains flicking etc etc.

And I told Hamdi that I heard people beside the wall. And guess what he said? That place has been empty for many years. It used to be the pediatrics department and now, there's just nothing against the wall, like a space to another building, a building where bodies are kept. Faloi eh Faloi. And then I asked about the machines if it has some sort of NIGHT mode and ofcourse.... there's just no... such... thing.

Anyways, Kiman's story is different. He actually confronted with it. Not a story to share in a blog! HAHA.

Gottago!

I am loving my days.

What happened there? I was able to go online through the hospital’s connection for a moment or two. Darn the depressingly low reception! But truth is, I don’t mind. I’ve got myself a new book to read: Remember Me (the previous reading was an average: getting rid of matthew) and a series to watch: DROP DEAD DIVA. Yahoo me! :)

As all may know, I’ve been hanging around the hospital almost all day for the past week and I’m not complaining because this place has always been like a second home to me (well, to papa mostly) and hanging out with mama and papa is something I adore anyway! Today is quite relaxing though because I only left home at 1:30pm as papa had been given a half day off considering that it’s Friday.

He said he doesn’t really need it though because he’s grown attached to the exclusive room. “At home, I don’t really having anything do anyway,” said he to the nurse. “This room is already pretty much enough for me. I have my laptop so I can do my work and since there aren’t many visitors [not a lot of people know that my dad is admitted yet again], it’s just like a peaceful home to me except for the treatment of course. Nganya nada printer. Payah kan print!” Hahaha man, he’s so cute. I love that he’s striving really hard to survive the cancer that’s been going on for the past 3 years and plus. His spirit is just inspirational! Go daddy!

Leaving in 3 months…. Shoot, don’t think about it Jah. Leave the thoughts. Leave the thoughts. Leave the thoughts. Left ‘em.

So I’ve been driving! Yes, be jealous! And yesterday when I came to the hospital after a little trip to the MOE and Ideal (for lunch) with Tangah, I confessed to Mama, “Ma, aku kan buat pengakuan arah mama.” [oh, my terrible Malay!]
“Ah, maxudnya?”
“Err… pengakuan = confession kan ma?”
“……….. sekali?”
“ Tadi aku drive.”
*big eyes* “Haaaaahhhhh Sama si kiman tapinya kan? Sama tangah kah?”
“….. err…”
“Inda eh, bukan sama aku,” said Tangah.

“Aku sorang, ma HEHEHE *with a smile as big as a cow’s buttocks*. Aku aga sengkurong and then aga pertama ampir rumah. EHEHEHE”
*eyes popped out from shock* “Ahhhhhhh.. ampun ku Jah, sampai hati mu jah nagnagnagnagnagnag”

“Eh, inda apa tuu. Biar tia ya blajar bah Ni. Sampai bila tah kan ya bedangan draibing ani. Aku menyuruh ya tadi pagi tu. Inda apa, asal saja na jauh,” explained Tangah. Mama stared at Tangah with her mouth opened.
“Inda, Inda. Si pijah na boleh” said Mama. “Tunggu ya tuha dulu barutah!”

Whaat! Oh my, my license would expire by then. So I replied, “Ahhh? Tuha? Boh, si kiman pun na sanggup kn dangankan aku setiap hari smpai tuha tu eh”
”26 tahun!”
“26 tahunnnnn???” I asked in disbelief.
“awu! 26 tahun!”
“Yang lain inda jua sampai 26 tahun. Kaka, Si yum, ramzi, hamdi??”
“Pasal. Kau. CLUMSY!”
“…………………………. Ok. True.”

I still don’t understand why it has to be 26 though? So does that mean like after 26, on the 4th of July, I will no longer be clumsy??? Haha. I don’t know how she could come up with 26. Honestly. She’s also been nagging me 24 hours. But that’s typical of mama. Sometimes, it can drive me crazy but really, I only look at her intention and heart, never at her tone. Those are the only things that matter. And one thing about her is that she CAN’T STOP CLEANING. My dad’s been complaining about it as well: “Kami baru ja sampai rah bilik ah. Mamamu pusing2 tah tu. Cuci atu, cuci ani. Ambil atu, ambil ani. Aga sana, Aga sini. Padahal bilik atu kana cuci dah uleh pembersih yg baru masuk ah. Mata ku pusing2 bah mliat mama mu ani. Paning pala tarus. Cubatah duduk dulu, beceta2 dulu. Panyap, panyap, panyap. Bila tah kn beceta2 sama aku? Nada bah ;( ”

HAHAHA. I laughed so hard. My dad was always trying to get her attention by various ways whenever she does her stuff, cleaning here and there (which is like… every 2-3 minutes “-_-). It hardly leads to any success though. Haha they’re so cute together. Seriously, they’ve given me so much smiles and laughter..

Anyways, so yesterday I drove home at night. Yay! My first time driving during the night and I tell you, Kiman’s been quiet next to me. No more “Jah liat cermin, Jah.” or “Signal dulu” or “Pelan aja jah” or “Ehhh.. jangan gitu!!!” or “Pinggir sikit Jah. Jangan terlalu deket” or “AWAS!” “HATI-HATI JAH!” Yahoo! That’s a good sign! So I’ve been better. He never complimented anything though but I know myself better so I don’t really bother to hear any. MWAHAHA, self-centred much.

Okay, gottago and watch DROP DEAD DIVA. Watch it if you haven't! As it is, I rarely watch english series but this one is quite the drama, I have to say :)

A weather not to celebrate for.

So it's my fourth day here (back in Brunei) and life's already pretty much eventful. I seriously.. just so seriously can't stand being bored for even a minute or two. That said, if anyone has any business that needs some sort of assistance, i'm almost available 24 hours. Just text me up :)

i did apply at a tuition school. it took some guts though (don't ask why) but i'm all up for it and the whole application is done. now, interview is all there is left to it. i've been at the hospital for the past three days.

my daddy is really sick and i feel sorry to see him suffering. if any of you were to see what i've seen, you would understand the sadness such cancer can bring. it's just all painful to watch let alone feel... but i'm both amazed and inspired by his strength. how the hell can he endure all this and still be smiling and joking. his will power to live is so strong that giving up is never an option even though he had gone through so much pain at this stage. so. much. pain. I pray that he will no longer be in any pain. Amin.

i'm wow'ed by how quickly the time has flown by. it felt only yesterday that i arrived in brunei, picked up by my sister and got some serious beating by mum for giving her a huge surprise. and for that, i'm scared.

all this is just too familiar. every year i used to go back to brunei for a brief holiday of 1 month or less. and all of 'em would pas by like nothing you know? like a dream or something. and the hurtful bit is that you get attached to this place within that short moment and at the end of it, it's just so painful to leave it... and I happen to feel and suffer through this every year.

*sigh. i am still not prepared to leave Brunei. no, not again.

so no, i'm not really celebrating anything.

i'm just too scared for it.

I needed the fresh air.

It's only my first day of holiday and I'm already bored T_____T . Okay, I may not have been a total study-holic but I did enjoy having a bit of pressure from the studies 'cause you know, atleast there's something to challenge yourself with! I know right! Farah and Zureen was like 0___O when I said this. hahahaha!

Anyways, had a little bit of shopping spree and spent an enormous amount of money: $120 for well.. a lot of things. "-_- i bought some clothes for some people and some stationary stuff for the nieces and some food/medicine at NW. Oh no, I also have to pay an extra $40 for Cumby's jersey and the whole school photo (deliberately tho)! I am not proud ;( I should be saving up for my hand therapy. I'll be better, I promise. but I was amazed to see my account book all empty for this month :) Alhamdulillah.

Oh yea, throughout the whole outing, me and lem did a little VLOG-ing. hahaha, i gave my camera a thorough look-see of Cumby and some parts of the town as if we were some sort of tourists. Atleast I enjoyed it :) .

Lem & I had just finished watching 10,000 BC and it was quite goooood :) . I enjoyed it and the adventure it brought us into. I really think Lem over-enjoyed it tho :P :P :P ! Seriously, she couldn't stop SCREAMING (even tho there wasn't any ghosts..... or anything to scream about?) or going all "OMG! SO CUTEEEE! HENSEM EH.. OMG OMG OMG" . My ears died. Seriously.

Nada wa lem :) . Anyways, don't be surprised that I'm back because I AM (to clear out all the dust in the blog!) but I wont be bothered with pictures so don't expect any. All writing! I SWEAR! :P hehehe but hopefully nothing depressing. I promise I won't write about HUBS for the third time..................... speaking of HUBS, I really sincerely hope I will be fine. Ya Allah, mudah2an saja. Man seriously if ada second chance, I pro-- .. oh yea, no HUBS talk. FINE ;( ! haha

Ok, I love you all :)

FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDOOOOOOOOOOOM!

My exams are officially done.

but i feel rather insecure. my HUBS... oh HUBS.

Ya Allah.

I am dreading the finals.

Not much I can say...

HUBS did not go well. I am dissapointed.... with 2nd sem. 1st sem was all good you know: I wasn't very commited to my studies, I even slept in lectures MOST of the time... but the determination and the skills to cope with last-minute studies and revision were there. Even tho I commented the exam as only an "okay"... I was confident atleast to get the marks I needed and I got A which really made me proud. honestly.

but this time round, i knew it wasn't an A at all. Heck, if it's a B.. I'd be surprised. It was THAT bad... even before the exam, I had seen it already. The way I studies this sem had many faults in them and what made it worst was the fact that I had grown lazier... 1st sem was lazy enough but like I said, I got through with the right skills. Atleast that's what I think. Hence, the my grades have degraded in HUBS. Hopefully not a C, tho. How unfortunate that this is only the beginning of the finals ;( . a... bad sign... indeed.

InsyaAllah. I'll TRY harder (maybe.. i just can't trust myself anymore) for biochem.

InsyaAllah la....

man, i just wish i can blame you for everything.

but ofcourse, my studies is my responsibility. no one else's.

so i know everything is my fault. haih... "--_____-- ..

hopefully, it's a B. Amin.

I hope I will do well.

I have a lot of to do's in my list and hence, a lot of things to worry about. Darns! I am, ofcourse, trying to settle everything at one go but that's quite impossible for most. Hahaha like exams (I can't really bring that earlier, can I? nor do i want to anyway!), my presentation (ready but still nervous), my essay etc etc etccc !

Ok, musn't get too worked up. I probably am from the worst nap I had this afternoon... I think. Had it after watching GLADIATOR XD (it was so gooooood). As some would know, I hardly nap nowadays... in fact, I don't think I have napped for the past months since I've been going to afternoon lectures instead of the morning ones. Truth is, I hate morning ones. I just can't focus well. And all my brain ever wanted (whenever I went for them) was to get my body to shut down and bring me to never-ever land. So can you imagine what happened when I went for my HUBS lecture this morning? I snored. Now that I remember, I think I did snore. I initially thot I was awake when I did that for a booger beneath my nose and I answered so when Lem asked me, "Did you snore??" but now I'm thinking, "Jah, seriously... why the hell would you make such a loud noise for a booger?" . Enough said. It may just be the last time I go for my morning classes.

So yeah, worst nap + stomach ache = tired me. I did my presentation tho! :D Alhamdulillah that's all sorted and ready for (insyaAllah) Wednesday. It's not that difficult since it's about "glucometer", something that I can relate to because mummy uses it.... or rather, used it. I've got a few things to do tomorrow. One most important one would be my appointment at 11am.

Gna get two needles pierced through me for two vaccinations for two different diseases.

I want to watch Russel Crowe!

STUDY ZONE at Cumberland College starts tomorrow (Less than a month to go for our final exams) So last night was a hectic drinking night for all of them. I swear, the lift smells of urine and the third and fourth floor (below) smells disgustingly terrible. ew. ew. ew. i just wonder what happened. on the second thought tho, i prefer not to know. ew.

Tonight was supposed to be a lazy movie night: GLADIATOR! :D Aku mau RUSSEL CROWE bah! Sipun jua ya tua sudah ah, he is still rockingly.. er... LOVABLE!

what made me want to watch it (So badly) is the new Russel Crowe's movie: ROBIN HOOD. Gila eh, so good. I loved every moment of it. It was everything I expected it to be :) . I just love Cate Blancett!

Sadly, GLADIATOR never happened 'cause the disc has gone rusty kali that it couldn't be played by my laptop. ofcourse, our first option was to watch it at the tv room of Zurin's corridor since it's very cozy there. however, the owang potehs couching there changed our mind and now, with the disc itself going all bitchy with my laptop, everything's basically canceled. oh wells, guess my date with Lem :P is just ain't happening. hahaha, and since we're very persistent, we're gna try it again tomorrow afternoon :) . so yea, since it happened that way, i thought it's like sign... a message or some sort that's begging me to stop fooling around and maybe, perhaps........................... open my books.

Ofcourse.........
that's not happening. Ever :P (kidding)

Anyways, if the disc won't work with the Xbox (at the tvroom) tomorrow then I'm gna head to Video Ezy and exchange it with a better one X( ! Aku. Mau. GLADIATOR. (sah dipanggil hantu movie)

I love the aftermath of exams!

i'm gna stay up so late! because i CAN!

just maybe, though.
still thinking..... hmm.....

I have the worst sleeping pattern.

Well, at least I think I do.

it's 1.24am.... fr an old Faezah, that'd be a hell of a time to NOT be sleeping. haha, what a change. my sleeping pattern differs from time to time nowadays. sometimes i sleep in the morning (around 4-5am) till noon and go for the afternoon classes. the sleeping pattern changes again when i would be in bed at normal time the night after that. a friend suggested that this might be the cause of the very irregular (abnormal) pattern of my period but i won't go into that. huhu.

Hands down, I'll admit then... I drank COFFEE this noon/morning (11am). ARGH! why is it that my body cannot tolerate caffeine anymore? You see, once I take it in, I won't be sleeping till the next day how ever tired and restless my mind (and body) would be.

so i've been watching Oh! My Lady. I can't really say much about it but so far, it's been interesting :) . I didn't plan to watch it until I was craving for this classic drama, All About Eve that had Chae Rim in it but since the drama isn't much available online, I decided to check how Chae Rim's been doing and reminded myself of the new drama Oh! My Lady that she's in. So yeah, decided to watch it... especially since she's siding with Choi Si Won (first saw him at 18 vs 29, 2005 movie), the super junior hottieee~. So far, so good.

Aim for the night:

**Sleep at 3.30am

**Epidemiology Tutorial Prep (Might as well just study ae?)

**Watch Oh! My Lady (easiest aim ;D)

Transition.

Hey yaa! (The typical greeting of NZers)

I can't remember when was the last time I updated but imma assume that it's been 2 weeks. I won't gonna be writing formally or much for the day since i only have 15 mins of "break" hehe. Err, Raya's been going on for almost a week now although it doesn't feel very much like it. But really, I don't care anymore :) I'm happy and satisfied with life.

For the past few days, I feel very much high-spirited. I won't gna write why that is and how it's so but let's just leave it at that :) My self-esteem is at its highest since I've been a good girl (I haven't been missing out lectures and I do stuff needed to be done) and I feel satisfied with myself or the one within me. Alhamdulillah!

OR... maybe I'm just saying this from all the caffeine intake I had in the noon..HAHA

I'm kidding. I've been feeling great for the past few days anyway! Unusually great.

That said, I'm scared if this actually means that something (at its worst) is going to happen because seriously, it's just been UNUSUALLY too good or just abnormally peaceful. Nauzubillah.

I guess the drama for the past 2 years (the fact that things happened one after another endlessly) had been too much that I forgot how "normal" life can feel like.

I pray that all of this doesn't mean anything. Amin!

Exams comin' up!
Focus, I shall :)

happiest :D ! / Earthquake / Bad Weather

Despite the "shaking" news about the major earthquake that hit Christchurch, 4.30am yesterday (most damaging since 1933), I have never been this happiest and actually feel THIS good about myself. I am not heartless, mind you. haha, it isn't the tragic event that made me feel so high. it's the amazingly wonderful internet connection that's working so well that i skyped almost 5 hours with my parents :) thankk-kyu-kyu-kyuuuu connection at my parent's computer! My daddy and mummy are the cutest! :)

Anyways, regarding the earthquake, it was 7.4 on the richter scale and alot of buildings were damaged around Chrch. All the seniors are safe tho, thank god. And I thank Allah that we didn't get much impact (4.0-5.0) although we did get some scary shakes. Like seriously, I've only been hit by an earthquake once in my life and that was just a minor one (like it only gets to shake your booty and nothing more). So yeah, I was NOT expecting it and I was smart enough (sarcasm) to be sleeping so late at 4am (30 minutes before the event) and when it hit 4.30... my dream just somehow evolved into me bouncing up and down on my bed as I lay there with my eyes closed. And with that, my heart rate increased to a number I dont think it has ever reached before (except when I hyperventilate) since I thot I was being disturbed by the unseen. And when I peeked to see, I was still bouncing on my bed... and with that, I just closed my eyes and tried to ignore everything. And then, I could suddenly hear everyone leaving their rooms. "Omg-- you guys have it too? my bed's bouncing? WHAT's GOING ON???"

As soon as I heard the last bit, WITHOUT EVEN GIVING THE CHANCE FOR MY BRAIN TO TURN ON COMPLETELY, I ran outside and saw the fear in their faces. And I was still confused about everything. Like, seriously... I thot I was still in a dream and with my heart rate up high, I was shaking madly. Remember when people say DON'T ever think about trying to give a shock or a scare to those who are sleeping as it may give them heart attack? Well, I experienced alot of it but not as BAD as that one. It shocked me to the core. Waking up like that, bouncing up and down, with a sudden jolt, is just so.... scary you know?

Luckily I was on skype with Yum and she saw everything, the bouncing and stuff. When I explained it to her, she calmed me down and I am grateful for that. Love you, Yum! She told me everything's alright... So I went back to sleep... which actually took a while since I needed to calm my heart down first. In the midst of it though, I felt the same bouncing motion again and it was quite terrible and shocking that I woke up with a jolt again! Ya Allah!! And I looked to see if Yum saw it, and thought that maybe it was just me, all traumatic. Turned out, hahahaha, it was a real one bt only happened fr seconds. Frightening experience but how about those at the centre of the earthquake? they must have a lot more frightful stories to share... :(

Weather's terrible. Still is. It was the windiest today. Kesian si LemChop :( since her room is very fragile. Her window shatters so very easily and her door as well so it gets kind of creepy whenever it's windy and just worst when it's the windiest. Oh well, and at Sasa's place, the branch to her tree fell off with a loud smack... kyaa.. must have been scary! Overall, nature is getting all fidgety with us :(

InsyaAllah smuanya akan baik2.

My fcbook: "Tomorrow begins the 2nd half of our LAST semester. Im scared to be honest because the first half didn't go well: I was lazy and unfocused. So I pray to Allah that this will not repeat itself and that once I'm all done with it and ready to go to Brunei, the hardwork is paid for. Ya Allah, mudah2an smuanya akn berjalan dgn lancar dan hambaMu ini tidak akan melupakanMu untuk berjaya, di akhirat dan di dunia. Amin Amin. Let's do this!!!!!"

Today just might be.............

So I was walking around Dunny, right... Wait, I'll start with what Lin2 was telling me (during her usual long steamy shower :P) . She said that the weather was very very unusual as she experienced a sunny day in one second and cloudy the very next when she was walkng towards the gym. Yeah, that quick!

So when I was off to finish my prep at the nearby KODAK photo shop, I was waiting for my picture (for my Raya cards) to get uploaded. And in the middle of that, the shop just suddenly went darker and gloomier in like matter of miliseconds. So I checked outside... and when my eyes hit the clouds, it was too overwhelming for my eyes as the clouds were suddenly filled with bright sunlight again. Gahhh! even my pupils didn't have much time to dilate theirselves!And this happened continually.

So I said (very cooly...) to the shopgirl, "The weather is unusual today, ey...?" Ceeeeeeeehhhh... mcm heroine dlm some sort of mystery its-the-end-of-the-world type of movie sajaaa (eg. Signs, The Happenings, The Day After Tomorrow etc) . Ehehehe, I've been watching M. Night Shiyamalan's movies, I'm glad you noticed ;P .

Irrelevant "-_-

Anyways, so she said, "Yeah.. funny ey? My mum was telling me earlier today that it might just snow tonight. I think itd go down to 2 degrees. But yea, maybe over the mountains only."

Dunny? Snow? Haha.. but it's SPRING? 0_O Anyways, so I continued walking to the PostShop and get my mails for the family sorted out and it was daaaaaaaaamn freezing like seriously, I actually got a headache from all the cold getting into my head. It was like winter all over again. And when I was done at PS (mind you, i was there for only 1-2 minutes), I went out again... and I suddenly felt warm... and maybe hot from the sun. God, it was unusual!

Even from the windows you can check the sun's brightness going on and off. Not a good day fr a walk, I tell you. Nevertheless, the bubble tea was worth it ;) Nyehehehehe

So anyways, wht I've been trying to say is, it might just be the Day that most people look forward to in this Holy Month of Ramadhan... The Day being Lailatul Qadr. But who knows :) It's always unfortunate how my period comes towards the end of the month =/ !

I completed Part 3 (maybe only 70-80% tho). And I shall now start revisiting (or without the re- fr some since I wasn't much alive during the week of its lectures) Part 4. Hagagaga~ And when's the exam, you ask? 10th of Sept. Does that ring any bell? Yep2 T_____T it may just be on Raya's first day.

me want more holiday :( ..

the idiot.

Balik awal?

Less than 10 days to go. I feel very much homesick now that Raya is approaching. How ever far I had always been from Brunei, there was a still a family to celebrate Raya with even though it may not be as grand as it would be in Brunei. So, this is a first to me. And thus, I miss my parents so much.

I hardly talk to my dad nowadays since he's unwell and my mum's busy anyway. And the first question daddy asked me 2 nights ago when I talked to him was "Brapa bulan lagi lai? 2-3? Inda ko dapat balik awal lagi?"

And I said, "Indaa.... :'("

But the truth is, it's a Hehehehehehehehehehehehe ;)

We'll see.

Off to study for BIOC. fudge the paper tho, seriously "-__________-

Jah! What's up with your life?

Since it's the 31st of August, I think I ought to summarise how life had been like during the month.

(a) I am finally recovered from a rather painful break-up.
Yes, it's not a surprise anymore and I shouldn't try to hide it any longer since there would not be any use to that. Don't worry, no suicidal 'cause that'd be just plain EW. Maybe depression. Ok fine, definitely depression but i'm hoping that's not somthing unusual in this case? You know, I am the type of person who find little things, like crying over a person, very silly. I am like one of those people who easily find things very cheesy or lame. Like giving hugs... I find that hard, extremely hard except (ofcourse) to a group people I feel comfortable with. Others, I may just push them away (literally) and I would always try avoid giving any... or accepting, in that matter :\ . So anyways, never thought I could actually be unFaezah-ish over a person. Oh well, he was... very special anyway. No suprises there either.

(b) My studies have degraded.

Like literally. I studied very last-minutely. It's crazy! >__< . Instead of trying to get into it, I AVOID IT. Like seriously. I play with MY (Syazwan's) Guitar. I CROCHET! I go FACEBOOK (80% of the time). I watch SCRUBS. I CHAT (but not so much). I do ANYTHING but studying! Seriously. Even it means having to stare into spaces to prevent myself from eyeing a textbook. For my HUBS' (Human Body System) exam, I only studied during sahur and the night before. Crazy bah, didn't even manage to finish everything in the end. For my HEAL's (Epidemiology) exam, I studied a day and half prior to it (better tho). That said, my grades and hence, my reputation (like they say, has there been any?) degraded. Now, HUBS... I got 72% (18/25) . HEAL... 81% (12/15) . Which all really only represented the average point. But I deserve it... and I am thankful I still get those marks. I seriously thought I'd get worst.

But like I said! I've recovered and now I'm gonna focus, focus, focus. Even made a COLOURFUL motivational paper =) that I have yet to publicise. hagagagaga~ eggcited for studies, I am.

(c) Puasa.

Yes, Ramadhan had once again arrived. And it makes me all the more home-sick. I miss my parents and my family. I call my parents less these days since I know my mum would be busy. She always is whenever I call... either that or just plain exhausted. so yeah, I just don't feel comfortable disturbing her :( . My mum always made the greatest bandung ever. Seriously, I'd drink the whole jug every day of the previous years. if only I had known that I'd be stuck under the globe. And it was always like this: Wake up sahur, everyone bangas but on the dining table we'd all cheer ourselves by silly jokes/remarks and just by being together. Now that's... a family :) and hence, I love Ramadhan so much. Here, however... is a lot different than I thought but I'm still glad I have friends to fast with and to care for and be cared of.

(d) Crochet Club.

Yes yes yes, last Wed... we were forced to join the CC. I was quite enthusiastic about it... lol I couldn't stop laughing at how reluctant the others were to get involved during the first 30-45 minutes of it. because the starting was really super-duperly complicated. You could be literally tying your fingers altogether with it. Hahaha.. it was just so funny how Lina (si Ballerina) and Peah (Peapots) were about to escape with the Toilet excuse! but they felt sorry for Jack (our RA) who gave all the sad speech that they eventually gave in. Lem Chop (masak kari, ditumis dengan bawang), aka Halimah Alias, showed her frustation by actually screaming like a madman. Hahahahahaha.. okay, i'm not being lame T_T . it looks funnier than it sounds! oh my god, these 2 scenes just keep replaying over and over again in my head. I had fun laughing.

Anyways, once you're over the difficult starting part... the addiction then kicks it. Seriously, you wouldn't stop going all "Round the back-Get into hole-Round the back-Get into loops-Round the back-Round the back-Round the back-Round the back-Round the back.." and that's when you'd endlessly be crocheting with your hats till it haunts you.... haunts you, sleeping or not.... that you literally wake up with your hands in the ai-- ok fine, it's not that obsessive. but seriously, the others had finished their hats in what? 2-3 days? Lina's done w/ hers. Lem Chop and Peapots as well. And I just might need another day or two (since I've been busier........... w scrubs) so yea... it's been fun.

Lem Chop, Farah, and the Rapis--- I mean, Jack/Lost Convict (what with his new motorbike look)

Linzy & Peapots w/ Olly (another RA/Jack's GF). Lina's baret is just pretty. I envy~

And this is how far I got to..... haha nah, I'm kidding, mine's nearly done. ehehe.

And yes, we are all now certified to live and become grand-mas... what with our knitting tools and crocheting skills. Who wouldn't want us to be their old wife/grandma now ae? ;)

(e) AGM (Annual General Meeting)
This was a weekend ago or two. It's to elect the execs that will be representing BSA (Brunei Student Associatinon) of NZ next year. And yea, had great food on that day as well as Terawih Prayer (which is relatively a well done). Chian Mei will be the President and her partner in crime, Yi Huey, will be the VP as well as Sasa. The first year included in the execs are Peah (Peapots) who was elected as Secretary, Dibzy (Dibah) as IT Officer and I as PRO (Public Relation Officer). Seriously, I don't know how good I'll be as a PRO but I certainly want to give it a try. Who knows what good it can bring me? Hopefully I can gain a lot of experiences from it :) . Congratulations anyway to everyone :DD !

(f) Going broke.

Okay, I should be thankful for how much money I have left. But cutting off the "possible" medical expenses that I may need to invest, I might just be off to a broke. This month I have spent over 600++ ... Okay fine half of it is for important purposes but the other half? I need to start saving up T____T . but I seriously HAVE been trying to :( . Will do better, insyaAllah.

(g) On a mid-sem break.

Mid-sem break just started two days ago. but for me, it'd be terday. Since I just got off First Aid Course that took away my full-time weekend. Not regretting anything tho :) . Anyways, I don't know what to expect for this break, maybe just a movie out with LemChop & Dibzy. Inception, perhaps. We were about to go last night... but it was raining so... that sucked. Instead, (thanks to Ballerina & Farah) we went for BubbleTea (Chopstik's) & McD ! "-____________- Nyaman hantap plg... nganya ya lah... fatness much? imma hook up w the gym man (setahi.... brabis "-_-)

Will take my time off to get myself in order and start studying for BIOC (Biochem). Exam's next week... Gulp Gulp GULPS, says my throat.

(h) Decided to go single permanently.
I was given the chance to NOT to. And I escaped, being the old REAL Faezah. I guess, I am not ready and I usually am a coward anyway and was never cut out for it. Maybe someday... but not today. not this year. or years...

(i) First Aid Course.

Like I said, took the whole 2 days of my precious weekend but still enjoyed it immensely. Lots of experiences and most importantly, knowledge... essential knowledge, gained from it. Hopefully, I can apply it to good use should any events occured in my presence (ceeeh~)

(j) SCRUBS Mania.

Enough said.

(k) Spring.

Final one... maybe. Spring arrived. I think it was official on last Thurs and has been named as the Daffodil's Day. Leaves and flowers have been blooming from their branches. It's been pretty :) and daffodils were seen everywhere. and day by day, it's getting warmer except when it gets rainy :( Nevertheless, it's nice to know that I won't have to worry much about layers anymore......... maybe. Hopefully, it'd be a pretty season this year :)

(l) Menstrual Cycle, impress me please.

Seriously. I'm just not getting it anymore. It's not following the schedule. Pfft. I was so so so so so sure it started two nights ago... but no, nayyy-da the next time rounds of check. and last night, again '=___________________= . stressed maybe? I sure hope not.

Anyways, it's 2.03am. I've got an Immunisation Check in the morning. Yawn... and as been said, it has indeed been a good month :)

Love Life,

Love Everyone.

Time for the true story...

As some may notice from my previous post, I just had my First Aid Course which went for 2 days. A busy, cramped up 2 days it all was. A hell lot of fun though :) The instructor was very kind enough to share stories and experiences in between although some are just gory. Nevertheless, it has been a great inspiration to myself and I'm pretty sure others as well who are passionate about being a Doctor.

The instructor, if one must know, actually played a great role in my life. She was... the fisrt person to give me an answer, the answer that I've been seeking for 1 year, 3 weeks and 3 days ago. Indeed, I still remember the date being 6th of April. It may not be THE answer but it is STILL, AN answer from those doctors who had treated me in Brunei.

The question was and had been, "How did I achieve the ability to click my hand voluntarily from all this?" In a sense that ever since the "incident" of that day, I have been able to make a clicking sound and actually let the doctors (or anyone) feel my wrist that they assume it to have been dislocated. And as thousands of X-Rays were done, no signs had been shown to have that as the case. It was normal, in fact.

I was in pain that year... ONE whole year of suffering? You know? That's just not days. And to think of how much pain I was in, both emotionally and physically, that's just... how did I survive?

It was him who helped me through, now that I recall. And it was myself as well... my ultimate tactic was to refuse any self-pity because I know it would bring me down. I know. Now that I look back, it is just unbelievable and just so over-whelming just to think how I managed to survive through it and landed here? in New Zealand?

Almost every night I cried and my self-confidence was shattering. I was stumped, I didn't how to do my ALevels with a disabled left hand (me being left handed). I became fragile and every day feels very much like a challenge to me (how am i gonna go through the day, this time?). Most of the time, especially when I tried to study, I would break down... emotionally. These are the time when I ask myself, "Who can help me? Who can stop this? Who would know what problem i'm having when even the doctors just don't know what to do with me anymore?"

The pain comes continually and worsened every night. When night passes by, that's when those tears would sometimes run down until I find it silly enough towards 6 months of suffering with it. I remember during midnights, I would try knocking my parents' bedroom ever so often but to no success. ofcourse, they had enough to deal with me when they're awake anyway. Esp when I cry. Yes, I cried a lot even excluding the ones that I had hidden to myself. My mum would let out her tears as well, fearing that one day I would lose my mind from all this. I must have.

God, I remember how worried my mum gets everyday. She would enter my room early in the morning and read me off prayers while holding my arm before I went off to school. I owe her too much that I fear I'll never be able to pay her gesture back. She's been too good. Love you mama :( and felt the thanks for the others who were back then never stopped giving me support (Yum, Papi, family, him......). My endless thanks. Why am I reminscing, I don't know.

And so how could Cheryl, my First Aid instructor played such an important role in my life? If she could have just popped infront of me sooner... last year, perhaps, I woud have never gotten into depression. I would have a life, a school life, a great year in Brunei... I would have saved all the tears I let out, both my parents had let out, the year I suffered through, the mind I was about to lose, the Faezah I turned into and just so... much... more.

The opinion (and therefore a logical possible answer) she had given me: You must have hit a tendon or a ligament w/in your hand which just somehow shifted some of those that were adjoining the carpals and the radius/ulna. Normally, this saves it from connecting the carpal and ulna together and create frictionless movement. However, since the carpals and radius/ulna were not adjoined well by the ligaments, the parts of these bones exposed to each other would cause the clicking when movement is made.

At last, it may not be THE answer but, as a patient, I feel a little more reassured than havin to listen to doctors going "Hrm, I dont know. Bones are fine. Blood is fine. You are fine". That is just depressing. Seriously depressing because then I actually went (for a year and more) "So are you saying I'm crazy to feel pain since i am FINE?" I went crazy, ballistic, angry, EVERYTHING when I hear doctors saying how FINE I acutally am. Psychological MY TUSH! IF IT IS PHSYCHOLOGICAL, why can't they even explain how I could attain such ability? Insensitive.

In NZ, they have a system where they actually do NOT just check for bones and blood? They check for tendons, ligaments and nerves as well? I want my answer and there is hope that mine, at reach, is closer than ever.

There is indeed answers (explanations) to everything.
And no, I'm never giving up on mine,
even if it takes for me to become a doctor and find it out myself.

Adrenaline Rush.

This happened today.... True story... One that is full of wonderful experience and knowledge gained that I'd like to share with you all... Saving one's life can really upgrade your life in many ways. Yes, I had saved a man's life today and here's... my story.

Lem & I and the other 5 people of our team stood outside the place, anxious and getting our adrenaline pumped in. An observer rushed towards us..

Observer: *in a hurried tone* "There you are!! Hello guys, this is Aluminium *something2* Company!! Thank god you've finaly arrived. There was a MASSIVE explosion a while ago and it hit quite a number of people. All the people injured are in that part of the building so if you guys can just check them, Please!! I've called 111"

She was clearly out of breath.

We all ran towards the place. I was up ahead being all excited to be in a scene and when I neared it, I heard moaning voices and even those that seemed concerned. Slightly eerie, I should call t. And as I pushed the door open, I saw a number of casualties lying on the floor, injured in so many parts and moaning for help whilst the by-standers either helping or just simply standing there panicking.

I could feel the vulnerability of the place and the panic in the air, with the smell of chemicals as I hit the area. Something was definitely wrong...

I didn't take my time looking around since I immediately ran towards a casualty in need of help. So I am not quite sure what happened to the others. That said, I am just gonna write down what I've experienced...

As I saw a man unhelped under a machine with a lady standing over him, I thought of the potential dangers surrounding us. Checked thoroughly for it and decided it to be safe. So I immediately assesed him:

The man in blue had his arm an inch away from him with blood gushing out from his core body at which the arm got separated from. The sight was just... disturbing that I took 5 seconds continously screaming (precious time wasted). A milisecond later though, I regained myself and checked his responsiveness. He could barely speak and was moaning very much in pain. "Ooo~ look he's hurt~" said the lady beside him.

As I ignored her, I checked the man's breathing.

Me: "Sir, what happened here? Can you speak to me?"

Man: *mumbles* my arm...

Me: Don't you worry, Sir. Everything's alright. I am here and I'll help you through this. Si--

The lady interrupted me in a hyper manner, "Ooooohhh~ wowww! loook! An arm! Hehehehehe you should join it back to his shoulder! Haha hehehee.." *picks up that arm and puts it down again*

I paused myself and looked at her in annoyance. I stood up and yelled, "WOULD YOU JUST LEAVE?" and off she walked away, finally. The man in blue yelled out in pain and immediately, I gave him back my attention.

As I reassured him that he'll be alright, and I could see he felt calmer. I covered his bleeding with a thick clothing (I took frm nearby) and applied pressure on it. I bandaged it carefully (terribly) and then monitored him for symptoms of shock.

I was talking to him the whole way through as I did everything. In seconds, the man's conciousness degraded. And soon then, he actually lost it. I called him out and he wasn't responding. So I opted to hit him at his collar bone to see if he would respond. And he moaned a little. Ok, so thank god he wasn't completely unconcious.

Seeing that his heart was working fine, I put him into a recovery position by rolling him (w/ a technique) so that he faces sideways instead of upwards. This was to get his fluids in the body drained and to prevent any airway obstruction going on. It was also a good position since the part where his limb got off was indirectly given pressure. His head, however, was tilted downwards and I was afraid that this may give a chance of obstructing his airway... I searched around for anything soft that I could use as a pillow but failed. In the end.... I used his lost limb. As his head laid itself on his own right arm, the ambulance was finally heard and safe, we were...

And don't worry, he's safe and sound now. In fact, his limb is now perfectly attached to himself again (amazing). I saved his life... For the first time in my life, I actually saved someone's. You know how wonderful that feels, how much it ca--------

OK FINEEEEEEEEE~ I'll save you all the sentimental speech. THIS is what really happened at the First Aid Training:

As Lem & I and the other 5 people of our team stood outside the Cumberland's Library, anxious and getting our adrenaline pumped in. Our First Aid instructor, acting as an observer, rushed towards us..

Instructor: *in a hurried tone* Okay! There you are!! Hello guys, this is Aluminium *something2* Company!! Thank god you've finaly arrived. There was an explosion a while ago and all the people injured a---

*Me rushes towards the Library*

Instructor: WAIT a sec! Come here! I haven't even finished?!

Me: Woops, sorry. *Too excited*

Instructor: Ahneways. All the people injured are in that building (pool room) so if you guys can just check them, Please!! I've called 111 and the ambulance will be on their way.

Me: Err... are you supposed to be a bystander? ('cause if she was then we might need to interrogate her of what actually happened)

Instructor: What? No.. I'm an observer. I'm just like... someone who's not in the scene but saw it all happening.. like you know.... just sort of invisible.

Me: *in head* Oh.. she's God.

Instructor: GO! GOOO!!!

*And off we ran*

I was up ahead being all excited to be in a scene and when I neared it, I heard moaning voices and even those that seemed concerned. And as I pushed the door open, I saw a number of our friends, acting as the casualties, all on the floor... clearly in need of help... Bystanders were annoyingly loud asking for assitance to the casualties. Chairs everywhere to create a chaotic atmosphere. Some got stuck under it... Some chairs, inverted. I saw Mah (bystander), yelling for help, at the corner but decided to go for the nearer one.

I didn't take my time looking around since I immediately ran towards a casualty in need of help. I never spoke to the guy so I was quite shy. Haha.. he had curly blonde hair and had that Ron Weasley-ish look.

Me: Sir, what's wrong with you? Tell me what happened.

Dibah acted as the lady, the annoyin bystander. With a jolly face, she said "ooo~ look! an arm!"

Me: OHMAGOD*SCREAMS CONTINUOSLY FOR 5 SECONDS*

Dibah gave me a confused look. Very unproffessional of me indeed.

Me: Ok fineee~ I'm sorry, it just looks so real. I freaked out.

*continues the act*

Me: Sir, what happened here? Can you speak to me?

Man: *mumbles* my arm...

Me: Don't you worry, Sir. Everything's alright. I am here and I'll help you through this. Si--

Dibah in hyper manner, "Ooooohhh~ wowww! loook! An arm! Hehehehehe you should join it back to his shoulder! Haha hehehee.." *picks up arm and puts it down again*

I paused myself and looked at Dibah. I wondered why she did that and only realised that she had been trying to get attention from me frm the beginning by being annoying and that she was a BYSTANDER. In First Aid, any potentially HYSTERICAL/ANNOYING or just merely a Bystander shall be removed from the scene as they may pose a danger.

I stood up and yelled, "WOULD YOU JUST LEAVE?" and off she walked away, finally. Dibah gave me the Woah-Relax-Jah look :P. Hahaha I got too into it. Even Lem who was treating another person and getting a bandage heard me said this and was like "Woa~ kasar jua. hahaha"

As I reassured him that he'll be alright, and I could see he felt calmer. I covered his bleeding with a thick clothing to which I had picked up from a nearby basket and applied pressure on it.

Me: Oh my god, should I be bandaging you with this? Wait, should I just leave it? I think I should.. What do you think?

Man: Err... I'm not supposed to help you....

Me: Ah, hell with it. I'm bandanging you up. So I picked him up a little and did a one roll over his body with the bandage.

*Instructor came*

Instructor: Good good, well done. But maybe bandage may be useless in this case. just make sure you keep applying pressure to the injury.

I then monitored him for symptoms of shock. I was talking to him the whole way through as I did everything. In seconds, the man's concious degraded. And soon then, he actually lost it. I called him out and he wasn't responding.

Me: Err.. excuse me? EXCUSE ME? Erm.. wait.. wait.. Are you actually being unconcious?

Man: Err.. yeah?

Me: Oh right..

*continues the act*

So I opted to hit him at his collar bone to see if he would respond. And he moaned a little.

Me: Ohmygod, did that really hurt? I'm sorry! Wait, are you acting?

*Hits him again*

Man: *moans*

Me: Wait... acting? or seriously hurt by my hit? I'm confused... how exactly concious are you? *haha soalan talor*

Man: Acting!!

Me: Ooohhh! Just checking! Okay!

*continues the act*

Ok, so thank god he wasn't completely unconcious.

Seeing that his heart was working fine, I put him into a recovery position by rolling him (w/ a technique) so that he faces sideways instead of upwards. I did it oh so perfectly at this point..

This was to get his fluids in the body drained and to prevent any airway obstruction going on. It was also a good position since the part where his limb got off was indirectly given pressure. The instructor gave me a well done at this point and left to check on the other casualties.

His head, however, was tilted downwards and I was afraid that this may give a chance of obstructing his airway... I searched around for anything soft that I could use as a pillow but failed.

Me: Oh my god... what can I do to make your head right... hmm hmm... *looks around*

Man: .................. *unconcious*

Me: HAH! Found one!

I took the plastic arm (that looked effing real especially since it was of the same colour as his shirt) and placed it under his head.

The guy, curious to know what had been used to cushion his head, took a peek from his unconciousness. He laughed his head off.

Me: I am so sorry but there's just no other pillow!!

Instructor: NE~NO~NE~NO~NE~NO~ and so the ambulance arrives. OKAYYYY !! END OF SCENE.

Many mistakes. First, should have thought of Dibah as bystander from the beginning. Second, no shouting at a bystander to JUST LEAVE. And out of all the others, the worst one would be USING A THE VICTIM'S OWN LIMB AS A CUSHION TO HIS HEAD. Hahaha..

Ofcourse, with a limb, the top to do list with it is to place it onto an icepack in a plastic bag.... or milk (unlikely in this case) as recently discovered. In MY defense HOWEVER! Since there wouldn't be any icepack in such a place anyway, I would use it as a prevention to air obstruction which would be, in a recovery position case, a threat! Hence, my decision.... as silly as it sounds :P . Besides, the ambulance was about to arrive :D .

What happened was we were divided into three groups of seven:

#1: Bystanders (those who are not injured in an emergency but are just somehow there)
#2: Casualties (those in need of emergency care)
#3: First Aiders (the heroes :P)

We all got to rotate and actually experience what it feels like to be each role. So when my group had to be the First Aiders, that was what it felt like. Intense ;)

A Rapist On The Loose

Gahhhh.. why am i giving more trouble to my left hand T__T lol, i can understand now why guitarists have rough hands in contrast to the pianists who have more slender and soft hands. don't worry, i still love piano more and since, i can't get one in my bedroom (aa duhh)... i've been learning and plucking guitar every now and then. must. stop. but i have to say... i'm getting the gists of it ^^ ... def not a pro yet tho. i have no intentions of being one anyway.

i just got home frm the library, 7.30pm. and in Brunei, that'd already be like around 9pm. so yeah, i guess you can consider that late. And since there's a rapist on the loose (not facebook, this time haha) close by, I was quite afraid about going home alone. It started when Shiou Yii was telling Sasa and I how there is a rapist that's been going around, kidnapping people and stuff. 2 girls have been victimised. A coloured man is suspected. Gahh, why when it comes to raping, does the coloured ppl have to take blame? okay, maybe it is factual anyway... bt i get all suspicious when it comes to that description, the fact that it may just be biased on races.

So anyways, thanks Dibah fr checking up on me during my studies ^^ , I felt safer somehow. Atleast I'll be discovered by friends if anything happens (Nauzubillah!! What a thing to say). When I left the library, a coloured man was walking behind me at a faster pace (who in the english world would walk faster than I do anyway!) than me. Gah, Darn the description! And my heart started throbbing a little and I stole a glance at him, a four-eyed guy, absolutely most definitely geeky which is proven by his bags, facial expression and body language. And an old suit?? Pffft, him, rapist? he's too innocent. he might just as well BE the rapee (victim), for all I know!

So I went ahead and as soon as I left the uni grounds, I guess my fear won a little over me again since I know passing the clubs & sox would force me to walk through a rather dimmed area. But then, there was a woman jogging by...alone.. and in a sleveless top and shorts with a great shape. Haha, and I looked to other side and I see more women jogging in a group. Blegh, I thot. they are way way wayyy more susceptible victims than I ever am! :D esp the woman alone. So thank you, joggers, for jogging by all my way to Cumby. Very happy indeed (and selfish at that too! mwahahaaa!)

And there's this guy... right... okay.. hahaha... i can't stop giggling now... maybe i'll never be able to end... this... hhahaha... sentence... ok.. stop.. stop, be MORE SERIOUS!!!! *uhuk* And so the history repeats itself, I can't seem to know what to do w/ this one. He doesn't seem to care about me anyway or take any interest in me......So... I just... wish... that... there's... a way to change that :P . Haha.. talor eh.

End.

Catching up.

Time, for the love of god, will you just slow down T___T !!.. as it is, i'm having a hard time trying to catch up w/ you. i need more time... i need peace... i am feeling gahgahgahgah... as well as the need to re-invent myself as a whole. help, anyone? lol. one thing why i CANNOT be helped is because complaining is such a trouble for me ;( , and that includes my feelings as well. i just don't seem to let out things from my heart..... even when i do, it's so hard for me. like it needs double muscular force on my mouth or smfing.

maybe that's why i feel like i'm such a dishonest person. i really.. need... help :( . there was one bucket i used to throw everything within myself into (metaphorically) but now, with the bucket gone.... i am terribly lost. terribly terribly. lol (yes, i tend to unreasonably smile or laugh when i express my sadness... it's stupid!!)


it's all in the past now, i guess :) . so i MUST be strong. this is just NOT me. O Allah, Help me. Help me be a strong, independant woman.

3 days ago was a happy day fr me. Altho it began literally rainy that day, I was cheered up when I chased after a Courier Post Van that was heading towards Cumby. Just as soon as he chucked all the parcels and mails out, I took mine one and began sincerely smiling throughout the whole day. And it's so pweeeety !! And i love it! And i've been using it! I just hope i'll continually be a commited & loving owner.

Loooooookieee, my nameee :) ... the parcel was seriously light that i thought about being cheated by the seller. suspicion already grew when it came a day late, anyway T__T .


Haha, but my initial thot was wrong ofcourse. the seller purposely put it in a much bigger package so that she can add in some bubble wrappers for safety purposes. how caring :)

See how small it is compared to its parcel !!! it's soo cutee!! hahaa i think the item would be getting more obvious by now!

Ooofffhh, tooo obvious now ! LOL ! By now, i was already jumping in joy!

Yaaayyyy !! Seeee ! It's the newest iPod Nano !! wooot woot 5th generation, purple coloured! I loveee!


It was brand new. And I confirmed it by opening the "apple" sealer. The waranty card and other accesorries were also included!

I think it's safe to say now that TradeMe has proven its efficiency :) but I musn't be too careless (as I naturally am) and gullible about the person I trade with. It's better to make sure you have your utmost trust in them rather than judging by their pretty pretty things!

Purple cannot be seen very clearly but it verily is! hehehe.. i love my purple iPod!

Attached to my laptop! Love my NAKED iPod :DD !

And yeah, that afternoon, I terus bought a casing for it and a screen protection. I'm very slippy when it comes to gadgets. They just tend to fall off everytime, I don't understand "-_- lol . Costed me $35 in total. Atu baru yaa~ kapih tarus! Should have just bought one online! Gah! But yeah, it was an emergency case. i REALLY need to use my iPod :P .

Hehee..

I love the whole Cover Flow system.

And this is the back cover, with the video camera at the side!

Very messy... I know. This was taken this morning when I decided to study and had enough of fooling around. Seriously. You see that apple over there?

I don't understand why I arranged it this way. 0_O Wait, I don't understand why I even have the apple in the first place !! It's been there for a week now. Lol. Ah yes, it's that grabbing-fruits-is-already-part-of-a-healthy-life thing that I have going on as a mind set. Hahaha... Everytime I take a banana, I never eat them... I just let them ripe in my bedroom until it smells that I throw them away. Same concept w/ apples. "-______-

But my brain is tricked... so i guess it's worth it :P

Ta!