So it's my fourth day here (back in Brunei) and life's already pretty much eventful. I seriously.. just so seriously can't stand being bored for even a minute or two. That said, if anyone has any business that needs some sort of assistance, i'm almost available 24 hours. Just text me up :)
i did apply at a tuition school. it took some guts though (don't ask why) but i'm all up for it and the whole application is done. now, interview is all there is left to it. i've been at the hospital for the past three days.
my daddy is really sick and i feel sorry to see him suffering. if any of you were to see what i've seen, you would understand the sadness such cancer can bring. it's just all painful to watch let alone feel... but i'm both amazed and inspired by his strength. how the hell can he endure all this and still be smiling and joking. his will power to live is so strong that giving up is never an option even though he had gone through so much pain at this stage. so. much. pain. I pray that he will no longer be in any pain. Amin.
i'm wow'ed by how quickly the time has flown by. it felt only yesterday that i arrived in brunei, picked up by my sister and got some serious beating by mum for giving her a huge surprise. and for that, i'm scared.
all this is just too familiar. every year i used to go back to brunei for a brief holiday of 1 month or less. and all of 'em would pas by like nothing you know? like a dream or something. and the hurtful bit is that you get attached to this place within that short moment and at the end of it, it's just so painful to leave it... and I happen to feel and suffer through this every year.
*sigh. i am still not prepared to leave Brunei. no, not again.
so no, i'm not really celebrating anything.
i'm just too scared for it.
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