Not at all a good routine / [REC]

The worst thing I hate about holidays is that I have to sleep so frikin’ late. Why is that? WHY? Hahaha. I know right. even this I whine about! Nada kan distresskan lagi bah! Hahaha! Well, at least it hasn’t been worst as it was during the years in KL. I slept at about 4 or 5am. Tsk tsk tsk. And I just can’t remember what I was staying up for!

But it was definitely unhealthy! That was before A-levels tho. And for that, A-levels really know how to discipline you, man. Like, getting a correct daily routine! I mean, that is if you’re so determined into getting a future… ‘cause the only way to succeed is by having that sort of daily routine! So go figure if you need to! :P

So yeah, I woke up with a headache the whole day since I only slept for 4 hours. I’m so not used to this “-__- but I forced myself anyway to wake up early. Part of the TCF syllabus: get up no later than 10am.

Anyways, brought my headache to as far as Muara. If my memory does not fail me, I think it was my first time there. Gila… it reminded me of a bit of an island in Iran mixed with one arah Indonesia! Not making any sense but seriously, the town really did bring me to the past. Mami wanted to bring me over to see some ships sailing by (ada kah??) but Dadi insisted that we should go for the Pantai Serasa instead. So we headed for the Pantai. In the end tho, after getting lost for about 15-20 minutes, we gave up and headed back to Berakas to pick Yum up arah stadium. Hahaha.

I FINALLY GET TO WATCH THIS:

[REC]

THIS MOVIE IS HIGHLY RECOMMENDED! ESPECIALLY TO THOSE FANS OF RESIDENT EVIL OR ANY ZOMBIE-ISH SORT OF GAMES/MOVIES. Ok, being a FORMER horror-game-fanatic… the degree of how scary it was.. is like RESIDENT EVILs + SILENT HILL + CLOCK TOWER = [rec] … I’VE NEVER BEEN SO FRIGHTENED BY SUCH MOVIE. EVEN YUM! It’s mostly RE-ish la… ‘cause it’s more to zombies all within this sealed apartment. CAN YOU JUST IMAGINE THAT??? “SEALED”! How are you gonna survive with all of ‘em chasing after you then? Curious? WATCH IT! HIGHLY RATED AROUND THE GLOBE, YO! I CAN SAY IT’S ONE OF THE BEST HORROR MOVIES OF THE DECADE.

The fact that it was cam corded made it extra effective in bringing us into the screen. I’m not exaggerating. Haha. At least it’s how I felt… as well as Yum jua! She totally totallyyyy underestimated this movie. She had a feeling that it’d be just another common kind but heck! she was screaming here & there just as i was. we even had to watch it with the light open! Hahaha. But it would have been more fun with a bigger screen, bigger sound system and a bigger group of people.

I’d say watch it with a group of people… family or friends because trust me, you’d be more than entertained. Let’s just hope it won’t give any nightmares tho :PPP . Watch it! Take the adventure! GET YOUR ADRENALINE WORKING MORE THAN EVER!! ;P

man, i feel like i'm writing a part of the english exam ''write a handout with the purpose of persuading readers to watch [rec]. 700 words"

lotsalove xx.

ps. sorry if it doesn't match to your liking. i doubt that tho :)

i finally get to breathe

dear readers (if there's even any), sorry to have bored you all with my rather unattractive posts but really, my intention is never to entertain. they're words... one of my treasures that'd keep my memory going till the end of my life. i read this novel, love during the cholera it was named. and the doctor, in its story, mentioned how forgetful people should reside to this habit of noting or jotting down important things on a notebook so that they wouldn't be discouraged or be unjustly tagged as slackers. Being one, i think it's time to jot things (ie. thoughts) before time flies & i lose the millions of memories within me. i'm already starting to lose my childhood ones......

right, stuff to do by the end of the week:

1. watch [rec] before any nightfall!
2. play more with the chickens at our little farm atta back.
3. a lil pics of farm!
4. JOG!
5. get ingredients for cupcakes (and i'm serious, yum!!)
6. finish off the birthday letter :)
7. get this blog ACTIVE!
8. birthday greetings!
9. R E L A X !

hmm... aight, i hope i can really complete all of 'em this time :P .. there's that new year's resolution as well tho.. gaaah~ hahha cam kana paksa saja bah. nyways uhuk uhuk.. lemme just start with my "7th" stuff to do right now... and i hope i'd be loyal to this one.

HAPPY ADVANCED 18th BIRTHDAY, JIKKIE!!!! sure hope you have a wonderful day tmorow which u will :) . ok ok , let's reminisce a lil. i've known jik for about *counting counting* waaa.. 7 years ;P . prolly the only BIS girl i still see around. hahaha. neways, i met jikkie when i was in year 6 arah BIS .. hmm... i remember I was in 6 SUTTON and she was in 6 HEALD, lurus kan jik? :P .. and i remember exactly how her first day went. hmm.. i guess u can call myself a silent observer that day :P .

i was having a Spelling class at the far corner room... yg closest to the Year 6's entrance door. and i remember i was just having a lucky glance whilst listening to Mr. Ferrier's words when I saw her, quite independantly, walking with her father (uncle pakai baju putih!!! ;P) and her 3 siblings. Yeah.. i already had the feeling that she wasn't at all like me (totally dependant). I was so interested to find out what happened to her then but I couldn't afford getting detention for it. hehehe. but i remember that i decided not to let this one go through what i've been through the previous year and promised myself in putting an effort to approach her. hahaha.. i remember my best friend, S**a, got so eeee .. biasalahh kanak2 and decided to break that precious friendship of ours. gaahh..

but anyways, jikkie was, really, the independant sort and i frikin' ADMIRE that special bit of her! hahaha.. well there ya go ziq .. something i never told you! :D hmm... consider that a present ah... CAUSE WHEN It COMES TO YOU, I ALWAYS HAVE PROBLEM GETTING DECISIVE YOUR PRESENTS...yatah i always gave up and just gave you everything i thot of. hahahahaha! :P

- THE END -

A good beginning!

Aight, so today's the second day of my beautiful holiday & right now, I'm staining Yum's laptop with my pretty fingers clicking the keyboard for me blog ;) . My laptop is currently resting bahh... from a v. tiring 20 hours of being awake! ehehe.. i was eager to finish off my download, [rec] , the original version of Quarantine. It's spanish! :D and they say it's scarier than Quarantine. A much greater version. But words are words and I shall judge it with my own two eyes (which will be closed if necessary :P). IT'S WORTH A WATCH, GUYS. macam resident evil wah.. tapi ani automatically controlled so u need not control the characters! and so ye kno, u can just sit back & watch........... which is in a way, scarier. hahaha... but you'd go "YOU STUPID EFFING B$#CH!!", cursing & cursing & cursing & cursing.... *YAWN*

anyways, yesterday was a fully relaxing day. I finally got to watch a lil something with Yum .. 'Schindler's List', which nearly killed me when the downloading kept fluctuating like hell... but as usual, I'm a calm person :P ... just gave in my patience for 4 days of its download.. even tho it could have been over in a day... oh yes, it was really testing me... oh yes i was patient... oh i so was.... anyway, the whole thing was worth it.. cause watching Schindler's List led me to shed a thousand tears. Touching as ever, it deserved that 7 oscars it brought back home!

Ahh.. yesetrday, my dad also wanted to bring us to Tasik Beribun (atleast i think that's what it's called). it was a long drive... 45 minutes approximately. but it gave me a good time to rest my eyes out from the previous tiring day. Hmm~ altho... we never reached it. 'cause the road leading to it was blocked by flood. So, we just turned back and had another 45 minutes journey. LOL.. atleast we were OUT right! :D ... and mami & dadi were enjoying some classic music in the radio, chitchattin as well throughout the journey. Dadi put in an effort to introduce us to each places tho i was already half-asleep.

OMG, THERE WAS AN INCIDENT BEFORE THAT. We were actually eating in a restaurant when we decided to go off to Tasik Beribun. And during our last minute, yum decided to have Horlick Shake ... and so when it came, I helped in to finish it :P ... i did complain a few times of how it tasted different from the usual.... and when we reached the bottom of the big mug... i was sucking, with the straw, something hard and i tried to play with the thing and when i decided to search through what it was..... *bam* i was soooooooooo SHOCKED to have discovered that the little thing i've been sucking and playing was.... THE CERAMIC TILE OF THE RESTAURANT'S WALL.. a broken part of it... eeeee~ i was 100% certain. EVERYONE WOULD HAVE BEEN AS WELL!

i wanted to barf 'cause i could feel the wierd taste sticking between my throat. even yum was sickened! eeeeee~ so we just left on the spot, thinking nothing else but to leave the place. Hahaha. but seriously, disgusting man .. n i talked to myself of what its little effect can be, in terms of chemistry i mean :P . gila gila.

i'm sure abg aiman would find something coincidence to this whole thing. tapi NO WAY, I'M NOT GIVING ANY HINTS TO HIM :PPP . ehehe.

Today, I just woke up early ... ehem specifically at 11 ehem .. to find out that I have broken a promise I made with mum :'( . I promised that I'd go with her arah Tg. Ghani sebalah to see his new cucu. She called anyway.. and expressed her dissapointment v. well and asked me to come immediately. so i did, with no hesitation. and turned out to be quite exciting :D .. had a.. ehem.. breakfast whilst chitchatting with the relatives including Ka Nurul. then watched the lil baby get shaved. it was a heart-gripping sight, really ... but i had to be calm ofcourse 'cause i know i'm gna see alot more worse than this in my future.

Alright, it's been relaxing. and i've got my blogging mood back already :DDD . ehehe.. so as ever, no pictures :PP. ah yeah, i have a class to attend to in an hour so better go start off the preparation.

HELLO, HEMIPHTERA!

those two have officially named my laptop Hemiphtera *sukahati lagi tu! haha*... but I don't know .. I guess I'll agree to it but NOT 100% tho. I mean... why Hemiphtera?? it's like........ er... cleopetra??!!? hahhaha so why? why? wHYyy?? it's unique tho.

i've been deciding on its name for weeks no! cause i've always liked the sound sera (named by andoc) on yum's laptop... macam masuk brabis bah! hahaha so i've been trying to find the correct one for my laptop. so hemiphtera.... hmm.... not sure aa~ macam not right bah. if u can suggest any other names for the moment tho, i think that'd be great :D .

Below are just a long summary of what I did yesterday. *LOL*

No Pictures ... sorry, malas bah :((( . hehehe.

yesterday was prolly the most tiring day i've been through for the month. Went to school in the morning. I didn't plan to actually.. but Ana txted me the night before askin if i'd come... then she said she's coming 'cause it's the last day. And i realised then how stupid it'd be if i were not to come... i mean, last day at MD kan ?? tho it's been only for 3 months, it's given me thousands of memories already. so i came... tapi with hardly any respect to the dressing code! everyone were to wear skulah's tudung and sport pants .. and i WORE tudung bebas w/ my JEANS on! aaaaah, mmbari maluuu. but atleast, i didn't get any scoldings.

was with Ana the whole time. and I kno i really am gonna miss her, my BE partner :( . she was one of the three people who approached me first and need not any approachings. she's always been opened and a fun one to talk to :D . after the whole aerobics which was funny in a way, we skipped the whole cleaning campaign and decided to head off to the mall as we gave up waiting for her mum. si ana di sana menyampaikan atu nya saja pulang .. :P .. then we headed off to McD, dangani she makan .. and i only had about an hour and 15 minutes by then to meet Rick.

So we talked and talked and then, got interfered by Mess, the gay partner of Fakhri :P (well atleast that's how we met. haha). banar.. smua kan besharing ani wa. My english went suddenly broken when he came, prolly cause i had to adjust my language to malay when i talked to Ana. there are random times when i can go bi-lingual and rest as mono-lingual :PP. anyways, when i parted from ana, i was pretty sad that i din express my farewell well... 'cause.. well... as you all know... i suck at farewells ;( . i'll just sms her, i guess...

went to hav lunch at Wecan where ze envelope was given :) . by this time, ofcourse, my english went at its usual condition already ... hahaha.. and i had nasi goreng daging with the ice blended chocolate rick introduced me to. btw, Wecan is truly a place worth recommending. It has the cuisine of a typical restuarant but something more. The proportion of its quantity is ALOT compared to its cheap prize. and the thing about this place... is that it's hidden. and i think they did that intentionally ... because really, it's quite a haven there. the theme of its restaurant is traditional and its eating places are varied. it's all....... v. unique. So you all should try. Thanks Rick :) .

Jess came then at around 2pm and we just hung out infront of the cineplex. met dozens of MDians ... last day kan.. duh. hehe. and then i was introduced to the other people who joined ie. Joven aka John and Victor. Since Victor joined v. last minute ... he had to take a seat alone 2 rows behind us... and believe me, thank god it wasn't me. reason: THE MOVIE WAS SOOOOO DAMN SCARY. seriously i've never screamed so much in a cinema before. it was 'Quarantine' btw. and seriously the whole effects it made .. and how it felt so real just scared the sh*t out of me and plus, i was imagining the whole time if i were in their shoes. OUTCOME = rick is afraid of me; i think joven was impressed by my screamings :P; jess needs to get a new jacket. hahaha.. nadawaa.. but i did pull grabbed/pulled her jacket the whole time. so sorry guys ;) .

it was fun tho when we kept like asking ourselves "what if the whole MALL is 'quarantin'-ed???" and jess kept going "shut up shut up shut up" hahaha. but it is a wonder, what if we were to be in their shoes. nanguzubillah...

we headed then to the arcades. tried out the basketball thingy. rick scored quite high (OFCOURSE!!)... me & jess only landed to a 37. SHE SUCKS, NOT ME!!! :PPP nada waa, ofcourse, i was the cause hahaha. and sadly, i still have tokens in my bag *darn! forgot to use 'em* ... the rest wanted to watch madagascar again 'cept fr Rick so they booked it. went to wecan again and waited to be picked up as they had their dinners. my aunty came and that was the end of the long day.

summarising it all is already tiring hehe. overall, they were such a pleasant group to hang out with. jess was the one who wanted it all. LOL, glad that i'd be seeing her next year ;)) . and it was also nice to have gotten to know more MD-ians eg. Joven who looked extremely like a malay LOL.

The suckiest thing is that I couldn't find Kimah!!! my dear chem partner! I OWE HER $5 for her lovely 'pudding'. Eeee~ cana ni aah!! I wont have the ease to see her anymore since she's staying!! X( .. maybe i'll hand it to rick kali? *sighh* .. gna miss her, neway.

It was definitely a good day out. i consider it a celebration to the last day at MD tho I wasn't completely satisfied to have not given proper farewells to some. but it was still good for the beginning of my first ONE MONTH HOLIDAY since ALEVELs STARTED (A YEAR & HALF AGO)!! time to get my mind all relaxed yo!

read the envelope after the night and was v. v. v. touched by it. Thank You :'))

HAVE A WONDERFUL HOLIDAY, EVERYONE!!! STOP WORRYING, JUST ENJOYYYY!!!!

Wonders.

It's been a rather interesting day. More discoveries of sadness balancing with the opposite.

Oh karma karma karma.. you're killing me.

I din have much of a refreshing beginning, even tho I woke up at 10.30am. my v. busy days need to be compensated by atleast a nice 12-hours of slumbering -Mmm~ sounds seductive- and I haven't had that yet for the past weeks. So, I can't wait for the holiday. It'll do me good. Hopefully.

Some declared their holidays yesterday when it officially ends this Sat. Haha.. and sadly I can't do that since I need to suck up for the attendance "thingy". UhHhh~ I'm still not coming tmorow pulaaangg:P .. Sat sounds fun tho and i think it's best to come. The last day at MD. The last day to see friends in that huge campus. The last day to be officially a student there. Sigh... how sad this is. I'm only new and already I feel this way... how about the rest who's been here months before me? who's been together with their friends fr years? And that is how sucky this whole shit is. But oh well, life is full of suprises. So BRING IT ON !!! ( pjah power! :P )

Sadly, Sir Abbas is not willing to dismiss our Maths classes so my holiday won't really be... a holiday :( . I guess, I don't mind. I might not even go to KL afterall, which is a good thing 'cause I prefer spendin my off days at my home country, getting expriences from each places whilst collecting memories before i MOVE to else where. LOL .. I just thought of that after chatting with Ziqah. And she's right. I might not even be able to do karate as well.. Was really hopin for it tho, nish.

OHMYGODDD, I SAW CC TODAY! IT WAS V. V. V. V. WIERD! I've always had this idea that the people I met in Iran would stay there and would never be spotted again in the other side of the world. Just like those in Indon.. and even those in KL! So people like Jikkie/BB/Wane/Zaf/Dil/Diyana/CC... it's been wierd :P . 'cause it's like... seein u guys who once used to be some sort of my neighbours in a diff planet and now.. somehow... stalked me to earth because of my good looks or sumfin :P . BUT IT WAS GOOD SEEING U CC !! FUNNY IN A WAY BUT VERY GOOD. AND YES, I KNOW I'VE GONE TANNED .. LOL the walk + the heat = instant tanning. seriously... you brought me to my nostalgic mood again.. bringing me back to my KL days... sighh. including the time when she put up that stupid joke which involved the monash's computer catching me as an intruder ! ha ha ha .. very funny (sarcastically) LOL

Ahnehwayss, G'na continue watching Rick's recommended movies :) Thanx rick! And uh.. I've got four promises to hang out. I hope to keep these promises. I can't guarantee just yet :D .. 'cept for this sat with Jess. OH, Here's a random phrase: I DONT GET NO MORE OF OUR LIL BEDTIME STORIES :P ... if..... you kno what i mean.

TAGS? sorry, jaila .. yum . bisuk tah :P

lotsalove

PS. i have to chance to work at Reader's Haven for the holiday :D !!!!!!! Hope I'd get it!!

TAGGED BY HER.

Today would have been... if it's all going according to the theory... one the last school days at MD. Yeah, katok is really putting everyone in distress. We had our last Bio Class with Cg. Lina. Yeah and I realised that she's a sharp observer. She can see how Afni follows her mood most of the times.. how Far is different inside (a cmmited student) & outside class (smethign quite the opposite :P)... how Siti needs to talk more etc. Tho I've only been with her for 3 months and even within the 3 months that I am hardly attentive in her class... I still admire her as a teacher who knows well how to interact with the students and I always ended up bumping into the caring side of her... So yeah, I will miss her, a pleasant lady aka My first Bio teacher in Brunei :P .

Then, Chem... as usual... just lingered around my note book, doodling all over. English, we did more on the commentary subject.. gah! enough is ENOUGH! hahaha. Maths was more to partying. Our Madam Chan gave us free chocs and candies as well as fruits. Oh nononoo~ they're nt just regular stuff! they were bought outside Brunei! Austrialian Orange, German KitKat, KL candies etc!!! COOL!

My god, did you sense the irony of the day?? I had no classes except for English which is funny 'cause it was always "I had classes except for English" . LOL . Went to The Mall with friend. Bumped into Liyana! Haven't seen her in dayss!! She was with her bf whom I hope din mind the hugging ..wtf?? hahaa.. yana's my english buddy. v. friendly indeed :) . Then, bumped into Munirah (Munirr..) who's also my english buddy! hahaaa. If i won't see these guys in Katok, then I'm gna miss them.. truly :) . went home then at 3.

And i'm glad I've returned to Brunei for good :) . I'm glad that the post-3-months after the rather tough moving... I'm glad that I've found good friends that I'd like to keep by my side forever. Im glad that the harsh times of adjusting are over and I'm so so glad that I've learnt alot about fitting with the people here... for that matter tho, still am learning.

tiring day "=________= .. here's something to cheer me up:

MY TOP 10 MOST FAVOURITE FOOD:

1. Mother's Cooked Cornflakes

2. Mother's Tiramisu

3. Mother's Choc. Cake

4. Roti Telor :P

5. Sweet & Sour chicken with Nasi Goreng

6. Kimbab

7. Amp. Avenue's Ddak Pok ki

8. Fried Wantans

9. Sushi! OH EBI FRY!!!

10. DAMN GOOD OL' JOLLIBEE! :P

MY TOP 10 THINGS TO DO:

1. Playing ze piano~

2. writing my private blog

3. talking and talking to my loved ones aka family/friends!

4. listening to ppl

5. watch movies

6. day dream of the future and its wonders

7. loving my parents

8. play with my nieces

9. making plans which ended up NATO-ed

10. going online

5 THINGS I LOVE TO DO WHEN I'M EMO:

1. keep it to myself

2. try to let/work it all out alone

3. write & write

4. weep

5. talk to ppl (depends)

5 TYPES OF GUYS I ADORE:

k.. here goes...

1. understanding and listens to me

2. mutual feelings and thoughts

3. loves me for who i am

4. loyal

5. non-jerkish :P

5 THINGS I LOVE TO DO WHEN I'M HAPPY:

1. sing & dance

2. talk & talk & talk

3. eat!

4. hug everyone!

5. listens...

5 THINGS I WISH TO HAPPEN, plus one:

1. to find the right guy i've been looking fr.. :)

2. forward myself to the 10-years-time me.. for a brief minute tho :P

3. god to tell me what lies beneath the future.

4. to be able to go to otago.

5. fr my family to be peaceful forever :)

I hope... by answering this questionnaire :P readers can get to know a tad more about me :) .

Next tags... tomorow aaa

Tagged by NISH

To celebrate a bit, I'll respond to nish's tag. Hahaa.

1) take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture right now.

2) dont change your clothes, dont fix your hair, just take a picture.

3) post that picture with NO editing.

4) post the picture with these instructions.

5) tag 7 people to this.

6) *no tag backs*

Whoop si daissyyy~ Imma tag:

Yum ; Schweet Lai Lai ; Mr. T-Rex ; Zailaaa ; Syiqaa ; Icky Iqra! ; Zikkie!!

"TAG! YOU'RE IT GUYSS! hahaa.."

Briefly Done.

Firstly, I'd like to shout out a huge HAPPY 2nd BIRTHDAY TO MY YOUNGEST NIECE, DAYANA!! I LOVE YOU SAYANG. I think it's safe to assume that you're the cucu emas now. Hahaha. 'cause you're just so manja to your nene girl/boy. So we love you v. v. much! =D . May you stay cute & happy!

Tomorrow will be the end of my exam :) . And I have a lot of things in mind to do:

1) Watch Madagascar with friends.

2) Watch TWILIGHT with Yum (if she wants).

3) Re-build the third piano sheet collection (LOST in the sea between Indon & Brunei. Haha)

4) Complete the 5 books under queue.

5) If going to KL, make sure to make up a LIST!

6) Look for the bloody BOX that contains all your Bio AS. Indeed, I have to repeat my Bio AS again despite the painful A :(

7) Relax aka no tension aka TAKE A CHILL PILL. (HAHA!)

8) Look up for some classic movies (WOPEE!)

9) Shopping.

Now the last one is a bit of a problem to me. I don't really know a good place to shop here... for clothes especially. Gaah.. wteva la, ze beautiful eyes of mine shall lead me to it, no? hoho.

Can you smell that freedom lurking? no... not YET :) . For now, i shall stay up late till 1 or 2am . Wake up around 10-11am. Yep, another day out from a school day :P . NOT looking at its technicality, I wouldn't call it skiving, really.

I have exam waaa~ at 2pm ... and my brain would get all worn out already if it were to be used in the morning! As how I've said before, get urself the best of you even if it means to break a farkin' rule!! For exams mean much muchhhh more than that! Hehe.

Current favourite: The Call - Regina Spektor.

Goodnight, lads & ladies.

PS. Yum, I'm getting zose stomach's butterflies again. speaking about the stomach's butterflies... i really think its a good exercise...... cramps up those muscles..... call it a sport or watevr, it is rather an instant weight-loss! isit not?! Haha! So my advice, get ur excitment ladies (not in the sicko way tho!) like for an example, BEN BARNES :P ! and get zose butterflies working XD ! burn some calories ..!! haha bleh..

back to yum: and you kno what i'm getting zese butterflies for right? hahahaha. ok. me miss major lame-ooo.

PPS. notice the contradiction between the post and its title. haha. woops

Plan for the future.

WHININGS FOR THE DAY.. DON'T READ IF YOU MIND!

You might wonder why I am so eager in planning my future. The world "future" means a world to me and it is... infact... one of my greatest fears. I know that it is pretty much stupid to those with minds of spontaneity but yeaa.. like... who cares. haha. And besides, I'm supposed to be graduating my A-Levels already like my classmates over in KL! Hence, the despair I am in and Hence, the whole planning that should be launching next year >__< .

But it's not happening. So I have to wait.. and wait.

My initial plan, during those KL days when I thought that my A-Level days would go perfectly, was to enroll into International Medicine Uni - IMU .. joining my brother. Haha. But ofcourse, that plan ceased to exist as, I have implied so many times here, it went the very opposite.

Anyways, today I have found the answer to everything. However painful it all is, it has been rather divine, really :P . It turned out that the Otago application ended early because the students were all to leave in January! LOL Even I would disagree to that. My A2 is not even done!! And even UBD Medicine begin in Jan/Feb! Yes, even by the looks of it, you can guess the dead road I'm facing here: I can't enroll anywhere for 2009 :( .

I was really crushed... I can only enter Medicine in 2010 ... when I will already be 18/19. *Sigh. That means I have to wait another friking year. The only advantage it gives is that I don't have to get stressed up studying everything by July. But it still hurts... I started my alevels when I was 15 .. going 16 .. and now being 17... I have to be retained to Lower 6 again. *Sigh... and now... another year....... that's a long waiting.

But I guess, I am still young. Haha It's all stupid, I know. my classmates used to get annoyed how I am so worried over this when I'm still pretty young! Well it's not the age, really! It's the waiting!!! I'm sick of A-levels... seriously >__< . It just hurts when my classmates have graduated and me, still ungraduated! *Sigh.

Atleast I hope to get the Otago scholarship for 2010 and leave in Jan. My parents are fond of it and me? It's the best choice there is .... for now. Hehe.

Whining officialy over.

A Productive Day.

I love school days. Because during these days, I don't have the obligations to go for a rather unhealthy diet i.e. trying to starve and end up consuming excessively. HAHAHA. Today was a happy day tho. I don't know why but god, let it be. The morning was pretty dreadful tho. I slept at around 1am. And I was pretty tired 'cause I only got back home at 8pm "-___- (was out for 9 hours). Though what caused me to sleep that late is the book that I am no longer prohibited to read :D !! YES, THE BOOK IS MURDERING ME SLOWLY YET LOVINGLY!! haha.. THANX THANX THANX, YUM! And I am an early-sleeper, mind you. LOL, plus it was a very tiring day so the morning, you can imagine how my eyes were quite swollen.

Not only that... I also got a nose-bleed in the library, red spots spread across my notebook. There were few who tried to help me... but I gave them an unappreciative look that made them crawl away. I am sorry. I guess it's because I don't have the slightest clue who you are! hahaha. Afni helped, anyway. THANKS SYG! :) Haha. Another pack of spots at my uniforms. And you know what that is. And yes, it was embarassing :( .

Another thing that made my day is the iPOD that I finally managed to turn on! WoHoOo! I love you, iPOD. It released all the tension from studying P3 maths... Complex numbers are full of *toot*... a bloody killer! I mean god, I bet the mathematicians must have been deadly BORED when they invented this. They couldn't get more equations out of the real numbers so they started to give the society numbers they have IMAGINED .. most specifically i . But it's all utterly intelligent however complicated/annoying it is. So I give in to ... and hell, it's the only way I can ace the topic right? I do still, AT TIMES, see no point of doing it. AT TIMES, tho. Optimism is of an essence, my friend.

I only attended one class ie. Maths. OBVIOUSLY, I've been doing more of these than Chemistry when I have chem exam the next week >___< . I don't know. I'm falling in love with P3. It's crazy and I get headaches from it but it's all..... fun. HAHAHAHA .. mad! i know.

So anyways, went to watch Quantum of Solace for a brief 3 hours. It was pretty an aww how Nisa couldn't make it. *Sigh :( . Looking forward to the holiday then. Anyways, went back to school to study further which i was happily doing! What is up with the joyous mood, I wonder! Normally I'd whine alot while revising the necessities. Again... I assume it's the iPOD! THANK YOU FOR WORKING, LOVE and the movie really disposed all the stress/problems that I've been handling. Aaaah...

It's 8.30 and I'm still wearing my socks + uniform. Just returned from Abbas. Hehe, he KNOWS my name! It's silly but he knows my name!! And no, not in that kind of 'ohilovehimheknowsmynameee..aaaaahe'ssohot..aaaa' . PLEASE! He's 50+! and yes, he knows my name! hahaha. I just get the impression that some people forget my name easily. *Sigh... please don't so.

I'm off to another read. Hope I won't have to campout late again tonight. Pray, let that nt happen. Tomorow is another long day. I just hope I'd accept it as joyfully as I have today :) .

A2 in another 6 months. Not as crazy as it was in KL tho :) . Love my life. Love yours!

Hairspray.

I love musicals. Incase you don't know. And I miss being obsessed with this song:

Without Love _ Zac Efron, Amanda Bynes, Elijah Kelley, Nikki Blonsky.

And this is behind the scene of every cast singing the songs:

Includes John Travolta, Queen Latifa, Michelle Pfeiffer, James Marden etc.

BTW, ZAC EFRON LOOKS SO MUCH BETTER SINGING IT LIVE/FOR REAL!! You can soo see the difference in the way how he sings at both vids as well as HSM. You can see how he's faking it on the other one just like you see in HSM (I think he focus more on looking good or something)! YOU HAVE TO AGREE WITH ME ON THIS ONE!!

Weeeeeee!!

k first of all, i LOVEEE the new hotmail layout. It's preeetty neat :) . Second of all, Chem went well. Infact, it was better than how I expected it to be. The topics are boring though. They're the minor ones that I hardly go through... Haha... no fun! I seriously hope I did well with them anyway! The two BEs doing the paper were only me & Mustafa and he has the same opinion of the paper. So eeeee~ insyaallah saja tedapat.

P1 to go. Heee~ but I have a bad feeling for it. If P3 was relatively easy compared to the past papers, that means P1..... have the chance to make me gasp in reality. God! Mudah2an inda taah saja! So anyways, after the big paper today... I decided to give myself a break from ALL the restrictions ie. I can update myself with the new movies and ESPECIALLY, me BOOKS!! wohoooo! Gonna start reading "The Tailor's Daughter". It's been rotting on my desk for a month. God! I should have saved its KinnoKuniya wrappers because someone special bought it ;p Eeeee~ And then! and then! (God jah..chill) I'm gna tackle that new obsession ... the one people's been telling me about. "The Twilight". I actually saw it being displayed ever since I walked into MPH since August. I thought it was pretty boring, looking at the plain covers but after knowing how Cedric Diggory (from HP) is starring in its movie, it MIGHT just be good :P:P .

Anyways, here's something cheerio:

HAHAHAHA. PALOI BAAHH!! HAHAHAHA. T-T-T-TTARO.

WISH ME LUCK >______<

On a short break atm.Today was a hard day. Seriously.

Was stressed out, preparing for tmorow's Chem.
And without my loved ones by my side... I never know how I can handle it.

Because they cheer me up :) . And today, it was them:

taken today :) . Haha.. cali bah diorang tadi.. And I'm gna miss them.

as well as this.......

"Even if i cant help you out at chem my best wishes still goes out to you to SUCCEED."

The fact that I care.

For the past weekends, I've been busy going through my chem studies. God! I can't imagine how relieved I would be after P2 on wednesday!! It's like... another burden would fall. Indeed, there has been many burdens I carry along with me these days... No... not pleasant at all.

And when I'm in that sort of trouble, I'd lock myself in my own tiny world and think of a way to get through it. Some may succeed and some don't. Either way, I seek help from God... and after I get stronger, my problem ends.

Anyways, the whole Otago dream came to an end :( Apparently... applications will NEVER be opened (AS HOW IT IS SAID AT THE NOTICE BOARD) because it ended like last week!!!!! When I went to the HEU, the lady thought it was odd that I didn't know anything about the Otago applications 'cause I got AAB for me mocks. Then I told her I was in BE and about my crazily complicated situation. *Sigh... I wish ... I WISHHH I COULD HAVE COME TO MD/BRUNEI EARLIER! AS IN LAST YEAR!! AND LEAD ATLEAST A NORMAL ALEVEL COURSE AND GET THE SCHOLARSHIP EASIER!!! :(

But ofcourse, with this sort of problem ie. the reason behind it (yg pasal my college di KL), I can only accept it and deal with it by working extra EXTRA hard. So no, I'm not giving up YET!

Lol, ofcourse, with big dream comes BIGGER COMMITMENT, no? Duhh :P

Tapi that Otago plan.... I guess it's done with. Maybe ada hikmah disebaliknya :) as my friend would say. Maybe I'm just not meant for it. Lol, shout out with Rick "DESTINY!!" .. :P Ah-neh-wayss.. I've hurt a friend a 2-3 days ago. Sorry. And as I said, bergaul di sini lain daripada what I've experienced before. Just different... 'cause I talk differently. The major reason: my malay alum perfect. Banyak org tagur sudah, even today, man (grr.. fahim!! :P). So my jokes, at times, won't dissolve well into ppl's head. So to ppl, sorry brabis if I've offended you in any way. I'm working on it. Especially my malay (you can check how aku bnyk kn cakap brunei sudah ni compared to my previous blog). So hehe... sorry.

K to Nisah! (Miss Nishish): I HAD A FEELING THAT Wu Chun's voice was dubbed in that movie!! But seriously, he'd be charming with the dubbing voice.... very dalam suaranya .. nice eh. I wonder how his real voice would sound like! Anyways, let's hang out, have lunch together ^________________^ hehe.

not over yet.

*sigh. i dont feel much pleased...... with the overall effort i put into my P6 paper today. suicidal... that's the sh*t i'm going through now.

nnnnnnnnnnaaaaaaaaaaaawww~!! Bwahahahahaha just a joke there!!!! hahahahaha. it'd take me forever to feel that way!!! :P . i just feel that my blog is in lack of emo confessions here~ unlike how most teenagers put into theirs... be it about their *oh-my-gosh-i-live-in-hell* lifestyle or their passion for monkey love!

Speaking about that... I don't know hmm. I don't believe in love anymore. I was having a pleasant chat with one of my more "experienced" friends who is at the edge of her 20s.... "When we are still young to know completely what life is all about, we consider an attraction towards a guy as LOVE. And only later in our years, do we know that.... that was never love." I agreed to her. My response: Infatuation, is it then? Frankly, I am still inexperienced so I know well how stupid I still can be when I am attracted to a guy and think it's all "love is all around you" (la la laaa~) . Hahaha. So there you go, a little emo-ish stuff from me!! *gasp!* hehehe.

Otago, NZ. They offer medicine and biomedical sci. programs. Plus, MOE is giving away scholarships of Otago to leave in 2009! And application is in one month time. So I'm thinking... should I apply for it? Parents have agreed. A brief one at that, though. But I still wish to go for Aussie or UK 'cause my relatives are concentrated (not diluted :P ) over those areas. Antah eh... maybe I'll just take the propectus before going to any rash decisions (like I always do).

Anyways, I'm off to study my chem. Big day for it is in 6 days time and I can feel my legs shaking in fear (nt for a dance!). Wish me Luck... 'cause you know how I love that ;) .

"I'm Glad I'm A Man" as he say..

The poem followed is written by a special friend. Though it is probably sexist..... sorry, scratch that.. Though it IS sexist (hahaha), it's still hilarious! =D so I thought I'd like to put it up here (it's been with me for awhile) !! Beware.....not recommended for those who are prone to heart attacks and those who are pregnant.

I'm Glad I'm a Man

I'm glad I'm a man, you better believe.

I don't live off of yogurt, diet coke, or cottage cheese.

I don't bitch to my girlfriends about the size of my breasts.

I can get where I want to - north, south, east or west.

I don't get wasted after only 2 beers,

and when I do drink I don't end up in tears.

I won't spend hours deciding what to wear.

I spend 5 minutes max fixing my hair.

And I don't go around checking my reflection

in everything shiny from every direction.

I don't whine in public and make us leave early,

and when you ask why get all bitter and surly.

I'm glad I'm a man, I'm so glad I could sing.

I don't have to sit around waiting for that ring.

I don't gossip about friends or stab them in the back.

I don't carry our differences into the sack.

I'll never go psycho and threaten to kill you

or think every guy out there's trying to steal you.

I'm rational, reasonable, and logical too.

I know what the time is and I know what to do.

And I honestly think its a privilege for me

to have these two balls and stand when I pee.

I live to watch sports and play all sorts of ball.

It's more fun than dealing with women after all.

I won't cry if you say it's not going to work.

I won't reamin bitter and call you a jerk.

Fell free to use me for immediate pleasure.

I won't assume it's permanent by any measure.

Yes, I'm so very glad I'm a man, you see.

I'm glad I'm not capable of child delivery.

I don't get all bitchy every 28 days.

I'm glad that my gener gets me a much bigger raise.

I'm a man by chance and I'm thankful it's true.

I'm so glad I'm a man and not a woman like you!

wonderful, no? HAHAHAHA. He is, however, talented ... v. talented =)

The Butterfly Lovers

"I know you.. from Once Upon a Dream....."

Most recently, I watched the Butterfly Lovers. Honestly, I totally underestimated it. I always judge movies by their titles and I thought the name sounded a bit too common for my taste :P . Thought it was the low-quality, lame kind of movie aswell. However, once in the cinema... was totally embarassed by the stupid presumption I made and it was evidently pulling you into the story right from the beginning!

It's about destiny, how they've been destined to love each other right from when they were born , having dreams of each other. Sweet brabis.

The Wu Zun .

And the actor playing in this movie isssss...~ the HANDSOME bruneian Wu ZUN !!! I NEVER GOT TO KNOW THAT HE'S ACTUALLY A BRUNEIAN UNTIL YESTERDAY!! MY GOD!!! THAT's A MAJOR DOUBLE HOT *waving fingers* YUM!!!! I MEAN TO YOU!! NOT TO ME..! CAUSE HE'S NOT MY TYPE!! :P AND HE'S BRUNEIAN SOME MORE!! The female actress is also beautiful.. tapi ya.. ok2 saja lah.. hahaa~

The Lead actress cross-dressing as a male student.

NOW THIS IS MY TYPE !! I DONT KNOW WHY!! I PREFER HIM MORE THAN WU ZUN (rightbefore he got obsessive though) ! AND IT'S SUCH A COINCIDENCE HOW I FANCY THE BAD GUYS MORE THAN THE HEROES~ HMMMMM.

Okay, and thennn~ I just researched him and discoveredddd that HE IS THE BRUNEIAN DUDE WHO GOT INTO FARENHEIT AND WHOM YUM HAVE BEEN TRYING TO PROMOTE TO ME SINCE GOD KNOWS WHEN!!! AND I SERIOUSLY REGRET NOT BEING INTERESTED IN IT!

RIGHTOoO~ ONE THING I LOVE ABOUT THE MOVIE: FIGHTING SCENES WERE DAMN COOL, MAN! Seriously.. they were all good. Bigger cinematic screen gave me an advantage to watch it even better :D . I am so proud how Wu Zun can move like that! COOOOOOL BRABIS!

And then I researched more about the story behind this movie.. Rupa2nya .. the story of Butterfly Lovers was made like a very long ago.. a classic composition, a legend. No wonder, I found some scenes to have been "ancient".

And also the ending.............

Me: "Af.. ko tau apa artinya 'STUPID'?"

Afnie: "Apa?"

Me: "TU NAH .. ENDINGNYA AH!"

Ok, sorry for the spoiler. Hahaha.. tapi not MY kind sajaa! I think it'd be the majority's love though.. Ehehehe.. so no worries aight ;) movie is STILLLLLLLLLL spleendddidd! WATCH IT PEOPLE, SUPPORT SI WU ZUN! I heard he was at Empire early this week and was allowing people to meet him there... people who have the tickets to his movie saja :P . DAMN! OPPORTUNITY LIKE THIS IS LIKE .. bleee. Kalau si Yumni, mati2an kali kan k Empire tu~ .. haha .. she doesn't like to miss this kind of opportunity (meeting celebrities) !

Ti Amo by 炎亞綸 & 劉力揚:

Ok, the first part was an okay but if you reach its chorus, right when Jade starts singing 'Ti Amoo Ti Quiero~', the song just give chills all over me! She's really TALENTED . So nice her voice laa. M falling for her :P Liu Li Yang/Jade~ :) ! Even the kids love it!

Chemistry Practical

"Jah.. sihat usulnya jerawat mu atu, jah"

So far no one have commented like that :P . I can imagine them saying it though! HAHAHA kalau ada, abis ku tarik spendednya!!! Tapi er.. they did say other stuff like "Eh bisai eh.. masak jerawatnya aah!" . And yes, another jerawat have established on my face and guess where!! OH YOU KNOW WHERE!!! YES, YUM! THAT IS WHERE!!

Anyways, I was the only LOWER SIX STUDENT today. Ehehe, Cool pulang. I got to talk to the U6 students. Fahim especially. Then there was that Mr. Doodey's friend, Syu'aib. My god, beautiful name right!!!! (respect man... nama nabi, as they say) Hahaha .. nicknamenya syubu tapi .. which er.. haha.. m not a big fan of ;P

Practical Exam was .. uh.. let's just say, HECTIC.

First question was on titration but I wasn't allowed to do that first and I think that's a good thing, cause the Second question was soooo... UNFAMILIAR. Langsung new to me!! Drawing up the boxes for the results were good though ;) I've been worrying most about that and thank god, I got through it!

Results achieved from the second practical was also done well! Woohoo! As in checking for its accuracy was ALL good . tapi the calculation, I assume, was furked up. wait.. lemme just recall banar2... Ah... wait.. not so furked up. Phew But you know.. I can be wrong ;( 'cause practical stuff is reaaaaaaaaaaaally unpredictable.

Third question was slightly crappy but I got the results correctly but the part where we had to work out the chemical properties of the two cations... I think.. i THINK I may have got one part of it wrong. Then they asked..

"A gas is evolved in this reaction:

Hydrogen, Carbon Dioxide OR Oxygen.

According to its density, which gas should be approriately tested first and explain the reason to your answer"

At the first 2 minutes, I was panicking like shit. And this was the very time when I dropped the FA5 powder onto my answer paper :( . So the whole thing became VERY VERY messy. So anyways, I finally thought it through and decided to work out each of the gases' density (I assumed that's how we work it out ATLEAST!! haha.. I CAN'T REMEMBER !) . Worked out that Hydrogen is most densed one and the Carbon Dioxide, least densed (that is if my method was even correct!! HAHA) . And after thinking it through over n over, I finally decided to depend on this answer: Since Hydrogen is one with the highest density amongst the three gases, this gas would escape the fastest. Hence, it should be the first one to be tested.

It does sound pretty logical, no? But frankly, I have no idea if that is even true. If it is, I'd name the method "PIJAH PUNYA METHOD" :P . Hopefully it is anyway........ ARGH! Then it was also continued with further box-drawings and identities! EEE~ and I think I got through them well. And... the last part... well yeah, I missed it.

It's a stupid thing to have missed the 3marks question 'cause... it was something that I could have made up so easily even without doing the experiment!! AND I STUPIDLY LEFT THE QUESTION 1 MINUTE PRIOR TO THE END OF EXAM! OH Well, there goes those 3 easy marks!!

First question was titration. Been practising on its sort of question (very common from the past papers) for the whole 2 weeks and I...... screwed it all up. That dissapoints me truly .. I may have got the whole readings correctly. But the calculations bit were all.. furked up. Wait wait.. lemme recall... yep, FURKkkKkkeD Up!

But now thinking all of it thoroughly, I was satisfied with my whole effort and hopefully I'd get atleast better now =) ..well.. despite the fact that my answer sheet is all messy and very dirty from the FA5 powder and also the fact that it nearly got burnt. Imagine if it DID get burn! the whole class would be in a massacre! hahahaha!

I am also very proud of myself that no breaking sound can be heard from my table :P (I always manage to break something during a practical).. Thank God I didn't. I KNOW I'M CLUMSY.

But I did get burnt .. (part of my arm is blackened) by the blue flame at the very end of the experiment. I didn't care if it hurt or not because I was worried about EVERYTHING . hahaha. And now, it leaves another beautiful scar on my arm . WANNA SEE :P However cool it is (GILA KALI).. I still prefer my former scar (from MIGS) caused by the strong Sulphuric Acid which lead to this heart shape on my arm.. I admired it for many weeks :) (CONFIRM GILA ANAK NI HAHAHA)

Right, sorry for the boring crap. It helps me to release tension :) . I am just brainstorming here. So, you know .. dont force yourself to go through all :P hahaha.

Confidence...

"Believe that you can do it and only then, you can be calm....."

A wise man (boy in the outside :P) said that to me this afternoon. He's a one funny guy. Most of his words are wise and honest (something that's rare to find in guys of his age... seriously). He's sensitive, though..... But I know how most of the women are crazed for that sort of thing. HAHAHA.

4.30 was ze tuition... and I realised how I have lost my confidence in doing any practicals. Partly because experiences were not much... and that many grave mistakes were done during the June Paper that caused me the reasonable C . Hence, the words were given to me up there.And I think I'm feeling a lot better. Those were the words I myself used to say, but I dont know where that part of me went........

Or probably I've been refusing to think anything......

I better get prepared. Exams are incredibly scary. AND IT effin ANNOYS ME BIG TIME WHEN SOMEONE SAYS THAT "WE DO NOT NEED LUCKS IN OUR EXAMS .. SO GOOD LUCKS ARE NOT NECESSARY! BECAUSE EXAMS DEPEND ON OUR PAST EFFORT AND ONLY THAT!"

To those who have one mind with this person, I just feel like digging some soils up to feed you with it. EXAMS STILL NEED LUCK! WHAT IF YOU HAVE PANIC ATTACK?? OR THE 'MENTAL BLOCK'?? WHAT IF YOU HAVE THE WORST KIND OF INVIGILATORS (PRACTICALS CASES) ? WHAT IF YOU ENCOUNTER LACK OF CONFIDENCE ??

Also, we get encouraged when friends shout out their 'goodlucks' to us. It prevents us from thinking any bad lucks (as mentioned) that can occur to us. We feel more calmed and enligthened from any pressure we get. And that is how supports from the loved ones are VERY IMPORTANT.

All that said, I wish GOODLUCK to everyone for their upcoming exams ;) .

PS. Time for a late shower :P

awu .. lurus2 .. wajib dberitahu. LOL