I am dreading the finals.

Not much I can say...

HUBS did not go well. I am dissapointed.... with 2nd sem. 1st sem was all good you know: I wasn't very commited to my studies, I even slept in lectures MOST of the time... but the determination and the skills to cope with last-minute studies and revision were there. Even tho I commented the exam as only an "okay"... I was confident atleast to get the marks I needed and I got A which really made me proud. honestly.

but this time round, i knew it wasn't an A at all. Heck, if it's a B.. I'd be surprised. It was THAT bad... even before the exam, I had seen it already. The way I studies this sem had many faults in them and what made it worst was the fact that I had grown lazier... 1st sem was lazy enough but like I said, I got through with the right skills. Atleast that's what I think. Hence, the my grades have degraded in HUBS. Hopefully not a C, tho. How unfortunate that this is only the beginning of the finals ;( . a... bad sign... indeed.

InsyaAllah. I'll TRY harder (maybe.. i just can't trust myself anymore) for biochem.

InsyaAllah la....

man, i just wish i can blame you for everything.

but ofcourse, my studies is my responsibility. no one else's.

so i know everything is my fault. haih... "--_____-- ..

hopefully, it's a B. Amin.

I hope I will do well.

I have a lot of to do's in my list and hence, a lot of things to worry about. Darns! I am, ofcourse, trying to settle everything at one go but that's quite impossible for most. Hahaha like exams (I can't really bring that earlier, can I? nor do i want to anyway!), my presentation (ready but still nervous), my essay etc etc etccc !

Ok, musn't get too worked up. I probably am from the worst nap I had this afternoon... I think. Had it after watching GLADIATOR XD (it was so gooooood). As some would know, I hardly nap nowadays... in fact, I don't think I have napped for the past months since I've been going to afternoon lectures instead of the morning ones. Truth is, I hate morning ones. I just can't focus well. And all my brain ever wanted (whenever I went for them) was to get my body to shut down and bring me to never-ever land. So can you imagine what happened when I went for my HUBS lecture this morning? I snored. Now that I remember, I think I did snore. I initially thot I was awake when I did that for a booger beneath my nose and I answered so when Lem asked me, "Did you snore??" but now I'm thinking, "Jah, seriously... why the hell would you make such a loud noise for a booger?" . Enough said. It may just be the last time I go for my morning classes.

So yeah, worst nap + stomach ache = tired me. I did my presentation tho! :D Alhamdulillah that's all sorted and ready for (insyaAllah) Wednesday. It's not that difficult since it's about "glucometer", something that I can relate to because mummy uses it.... or rather, used it. I've got a few things to do tomorrow. One most important one would be my appointment at 11am.

Gna get two needles pierced through me for two vaccinations for two different diseases.

I want to watch Russel Crowe!

STUDY ZONE at Cumberland College starts tomorrow (Less than a month to go for our final exams) So last night was a hectic drinking night for all of them. I swear, the lift smells of urine and the third and fourth floor (below) smells disgustingly terrible. ew. ew. ew. i just wonder what happened. on the second thought tho, i prefer not to know. ew.

Tonight was supposed to be a lazy movie night: GLADIATOR! :D Aku mau RUSSEL CROWE bah! Sipun jua ya tua sudah ah, he is still rockingly.. er... LOVABLE!

what made me want to watch it (So badly) is the new Russel Crowe's movie: ROBIN HOOD. Gila eh, so good. I loved every moment of it. It was everything I expected it to be :) . I just love Cate Blancett!

Sadly, GLADIATOR never happened 'cause the disc has gone rusty kali that it couldn't be played by my laptop. ofcourse, our first option was to watch it at the tv room of Zurin's corridor since it's very cozy there. however, the owang potehs couching there changed our mind and now, with the disc itself going all bitchy with my laptop, everything's basically canceled. oh wells, guess my date with Lem :P is just ain't happening. hahaha, and since we're very persistent, we're gna try it again tomorrow afternoon :) . so yea, since it happened that way, i thought it's like sign... a message or some sort that's begging me to stop fooling around and maybe, perhaps........................... open my books.

Ofcourse.........
that's not happening. Ever :P (kidding)

Anyways, if the disc won't work with the Xbox (at the tvroom) tomorrow then I'm gna head to Video Ezy and exchange it with a better one X( ! Aku. Mau. GLADIATOR. (sah dipanggil hantu movie)

I love the aftermath of exams!

i'm gna stay up so late! because i CAN!

just maybe, though.
still thinking..... hmm.....

I have the worst sleeping pattern.

Well, at least I think I do.

it's 1.24am.... fr an old Faezah, that'd be a hell of a time to NOT be sleeping. haha, what a change. my sleeping pattern differs from time to time nowadays. sometimes i sleep in the morning (around 4-5am) till noon and go for the afternoon classes. the sleeping pattern changes again when i would be in bed at normal time the night after that. a friend suggested that this might be the cause of the very irregular (abnormal) pattern of my period but i won't go into that. huhu.

Hands down, I'll admit then... I drank COFFEE this noon/morning (11am). ARGH! why is it that my body cannot tolerate caffeine anymore? You see, once I take it in, I won't be sleeping till the next day how ever tired and restless my mind (and body) would be.

so i've been watching Oh! My Lady. I can't really say much about it but so far, it's been interesting :) . I didn't plan to watch it until I was craving for this classic drama, All About Eve that had Chae Rim in it but since the drama isn't much available online, I decided to check how Chae Rim's been doing and reminded myself of the new drama Oh! My Lady that she's in. So yeah, decided to watch it... especially since she's siding with Choi Si Won (first saw him at 18 vs 29, 2005 movie), the super junior hottieee~. So far, so good.

Aim for the night:

**Sleep at 3.30am

**Epidemiology Tutorial Prep (Might as well just study ae?)

**Watch Oh! My Lady (easiest aim ;D)

Transition.

Hey yaa! (The typical greeting of NZers)

I can't remember when was the last time I updated but imma assume that it's been 2 weeks. I won't gonna be writing formally or much for the day since i only have 15 mins of "break" hehe. Err, Raya's been going on for almost a week now although it doesn't feel very much like it. But really, I don't care anymore :) I'm happy and satisfied with life.

For the past few days, I feel very much high-spirited. I won't gna write why that is and how it's so but let's just leave it at that :) My self-esteem is at its highest since I've been a good girl (I haven't been missing out lectures and I do stuff needed to be done) and I feel satisfied with myself or the one within me. Alhamdulillah!

OR... maybe I'm just saying this from all the caffeine intake I had in the noon..HAHA

I'm kidding. I've been feeling great for the past few days anyway! Unusually great.

That said, I'm scared if this actually means that something (at its worst) is going to happen because seriously, it's just been UNUSUALLY too good or just abnormally peaceful. Nauzubillah.

I guess the drama for the past 2 years (the fact that things happened one after another endlessly) had been too much that I forgot how "normal" life can feel like.

I pray that all of this doesn't mean anything. Amin!

Exams comin' up!
Focus, I shall :)

happiest :D ! / Earthquake / Bad Weather

Despite the "shaking" news about the major earthquake that hit Christchurch, 4.30am yesterday (most damaging since 1933), I have never been this happiest and actually feel THIS good about myself. I am not heartless, mind you. haha, it isn't the tragic event that made me feel so high. it's the amazingly wonderful internet connection that's working so well that i skyped almost 5 hours with my parents :) thankk-kyu-kyu-kyuuuu connection at my parent's computer! My daddy and mummy are the cutest! :)

Anyways, regarding the earthquake, it was 7.4 on the richter scale and alot of buildings were damaged around Chrch. All the seniors are safe tho, thank god. And I thank Allah that we didn't get much impact (4.0-5.0) although we did get some scary shakes. Like seriously, I've only been hit by an earthquake once in my life and that was just a minor one (like it only gets to shake your booty and nothing more). So yeah, I was NOT expecting it and I was smart enough (sarcasm) to be sleeping so late at 4am (30 minutes before the event) and when it hit 4.30... my dream just somehow evolved into me bouncing up and down on my bed as I lay there with my eyes closed. And with that, my heart rate increased to a number I dont think it has ever reached before (except when I hyperventilate) since I thot I was being disturbed by the unseen. And when I peeked to see, I was still bouncing on my bed... and with that, I just closed my eyes and tried to ignore everything. And then, I could suddenly hear everyone leaving their rooms. "Omg-- you guys have it too? my bed's bouncing? WHAT's GOING ON???"

As soon as I heard the last bit, WITHOUT EVEN GIVING THE CHANCE FOR MY BRAIN TO TURN ON COMPLETELY, I ran outside and saw the fear in their faces. And I was still confused about everything. Like, seriously... I thot I was still in a dream and with my heart rate up high, I was shaking madly. Remember when people say DON'T ever think about trying to give a shock or a scare to those who are sleeping as it may give them heart attack? Well, I experienced alot of it but not as BAD as that one. It shocked me to the core. Waking up like that, bouncing up and down, with a sudden jolt, is just so.... scary you know?

Luckily I was on skype with Yum and she saw everything, the bouncing and stuff. When I explained it to her, she calmed me down and I am grateful for that. Love you, Yum! She told me everything's alright... So I went back to sleep... which actually took a while since I needed to calm my heart down first. In the midst of it though, I felt the same bouncing motion again and it was quite terrible and shocking that I woke up with a jolt again! Ya Allah!! And I looked to see if Yum saw it, and thought that maybe it was just me, all traumatic. Turned out, hahahaha, it was a real one bt only happened fr seconds. Frightening experience but how about those at the centre of the earthquake? they must have a lot more frightful stories to share... :(

Weather's terrible. Still is. It was the windiest today. Kesian si LemChop :( since her room is very fragile. Her window shatters so very easily and her door as well so it gets kind of creepy whenever it's windy and just worst when it's the windiest. Oh well, and at Sasa's place, the branch to her tree fell off with a loud smack... kyaa.. must have been scary! Overall, nature is getting all fidgety with us :(

InsyaAllah smuanya akan baik2.

My fcbook: "Tomorrow begins the 2nd half of our LAST semester. Im scared to be honest because the first half didn't go well: I was lazy and unfocused. So I pray to Allah that this will not repeat itself and that once I'm all done with it and ready to go to Brunei, the hardwork is paid for. Ya Allah, mudah2an smuanya akn berjalan dgn lancar dan hambaMu ini tidak akan melupakanMu untuk berjaya, di akhirat dan di dunia. Amin Amin. Let's do this!!!!!"