central library

currently at the central lib. with Lem at the next slot to mine. today was a fine. Woke up from a terrible sleep as my whole body ached but the morning blues dissapeared when i had the nicest breakfast anyone can ever have: vita oats, which i got from Mah. Thx, Mah! It's just like vita nestum but BETTER! Mwahaha ... And in my food-storage, i have so stock left and i'm not sharing! Mwahaha.

Speaking of food, my indomee completely ran out. I'm having a hard time surviving already for the past few days. Lol. and i fell in love with indomee goreng PEDAS which is packed with red-coloured wrappings instead of the usual one? You may think it would be spicy but it ain't at all! I mean come on! Who can be more of a spicy-phobic than i am? hence, def recommended. Need. To. Buy. Them

Cold Nights...

Assalamualaikum,

It’s 9pm and I’m already falling asleep. Noooo~ Come on Jah! Your CHEM 191’s notes await you. Sleeping can be done later. Oh what am i saying... before I know it, my laptop wil be flooded by all the saliva “-__- (so unwoman)

I felt the day to have been unlucky and many signs, besides feelings, could back me up on this one. For instance, about 3 minutes after I placed myself at the private study slot, my lamp suddenly went dead and it was only mine among other slots in the corridor that encountered this “-_- .

Another example? I ran to get a drink at the vending machine since I realised I left my water back at Cumby (I love water T___T ). The previous guy who had been using the machine left his drink in it. And when I coined in for my water, the bottle pushed his energy drink to be popped out of the machine. So instead, I achieved HIS energy drink instead of the mineral water which I needed oh so desperately and is now stuck inside the machine.

Refusing to take out another $2 just for it, I went back and continued revising after sipping some water from the fountain. I still prefer it bottled though T__T since it can be used for days.

*sigh, even the weather was not in the mood. Terrible weather, today. It was so windy that I thought I was about to be lifted by the force of it. The weather has been getting stronger. Winter is definitely and my clothes are not enough. Getting the huge coat, as I found out this afternoon, will cost me $70 . Ohhh moneeeeeyyy $___________$ . I better call Mum first... I already know what her answer would be but.... sometimes asking for a person’s opinion, how indifferent it may be, is just a matter of listening better to our own opinion.

I don’t know how much of a good friend I am here but I try to be, anyway. I do feel I’ve given the wrong image to some but that never bothered me anyway. I know myself best. And I am happy with them, nevertheless. I mean, they are my family here and being a little too sloppy and careless, i may have to rely on them that more. I don’t know how many times have each of them helped me in so many different situations that I appreciate very much of esp the Limah 2x . Hahaha.

I am happy even more that I am not as EXTREMELY careless as I so think. Alhamdulillah. Seriously, when one knows me throughout my stay in Brunei or my life basically, one should know how completely careless I was everyweek or day even. My family knows best.

Ah yea, this Sat, after our Chem Exam during the morning, will be our BSA Movie Night (only for Bruneians) which will be held at the OUSA (5 minutes walk). Yay, I really hope it’d be worth the whole hard-work in getting through our studies for Chem AND Physics. Hehe.

Time to study!!!

Be Happy, regardless of your situation.
Assalamualaikum.

Assalamualaikum,

PHSI 191 MID-SEM EXAM IS DONE WITH! Haha i can finally relax (for a few short hours) before I start thinking about CHEM 191 EXAM which is held at the end of this week. Huuuhhh, definitely can’t wait for June (18th June precisely) by which my exams will all be finished and what awaits us then would only be our ONE month break! :D

We have some plans going on for the break. Firstly, being in Cumby totally deserted (since everyone would be leaving for their homes) gives us so many privileges!! And to not be thinking of anything, I can enjoy my holiday soooo much moreeee! Perhaps i’ll start playing the piano regularly downstairs. Love the music room :) !

Then, we will (MUST MUST MUST!!) sight-see more of the city that we’ve been in. And i will, insyaAllah, get a chance to check my hand at the hospital in Christchurch since that is the closest hospital that provides micro-surgery from Dunedin. Ya Allah, mudah2an semuanya akan berjalan lancar dengan tangan ku ani. Sembuhkan lah tanganku ini, Ya Allah. Amin Ya Robbal Alamin.

Today, Lim & I studied at the Central Library. By far, it is the best library I’ve ever been to. The private study place is just amazing. I shall have photo-sessions of this library (and maybe the Science Library and other places as well) to let myself acknowledge and appreciate better of the beautiful Uni I’ve been studying at.

Lectures were okay as usual. Ironically, I didn’t fell asleep in any of it (I think) except for a few seconds in HUBS. The only thing that maximised my awareness during that lecture was when the lecture talked about Parkinson’s Disease, one of the diseases I’ve been interested about. Coicidentally I just bought Michael J Fox’s book regarding his life experience handling this disease. I haven’t read much but will do so maybe after CHEM’s exam. So far? Interesting.

After the exam, we actually planned to construct another dance but this time to the song, Jai Ho. This time, the guest star would be Zurin’s (if you know what i mean ;D ) since she laughed at us during breakfast when we were discussing about Ms. Lim’s being the guest star at our previous song: Train’s Hey Soul Sister !! HAHA, I think we indirectly ruined the song for the people who watched it. I found it entertaining, nevertheless :D . It’d be fun if we do another one some day.

And I should say that Dibah and Lim can seriouly dance! Pffffffft! Hahaha.

Putting that aside, I miss my family back in Brunei. I miss Allahyarham Abang. I think of him everyday. Learning about the nervous system or the whole fuctions of that brain in such GREAT detail sometimes put me to tears in the middle of the lecture and the excuse I give? “Oh, I’m just soo sleepy.” It reminds me that much of you, Bang. And when I do, I pray for you in my heart that you’re all well where ever you are. You’ve been a great big brother for the past 18 years and few months of my life and forgetting about you will be the last thing I ever do in this world. And once I prayed, I feel better and focused back to the lecture. It’s true when they say “grieving is not a way to reminisce your love one. Praying for them is.”

Al-Fatihah.

Assalamualaikum.

Blog Re-opened.

Salam,

I’ve been having some thought about re-opening my public blog. Maybe this can be a good start? And if this works out well (ie. updating it regularly), then i may publicise it. I had to shut it down about more than a year ago since I find a few of the things that I’ve written was a little too private and that everyone (that i care) pratically knew what my life was up to?

Since I haven’t been much active in facebook either, I thought maybe I can communicate with the other side of the world through my writings (my old-time passion). That is if they are ever interested in my doings & life over here.

Erm, well what’s up with me now? I’m in NZ, taking Health Sciences First Year as the First Year to MBBS (Medicine). I’m sorry I couldn’t inform everyone about it since the whole preparation was terribly chaotic. I was only awarded the day before I left Brunei (Can you imagine?). Before that, it was only a maybe? Especially since my result (among other millions of problems that arised in 2009) for Chem was INVALID (X) temporarily. Only the last week I was in Brunei was I notified of the correct result and Alhamdulillah, it was more than satisfactory =) especially considering the pain I went through 2009. So Alhamdulillah, with Allah’s Blessings, I’m doing the degree I have been most passionate in and doing it in a country that provides proffesional teaching and is environmentally green with heaps of friendly/smiley people. Alhamdulillah.
So far, life is still busy like hell. Infact, I’m studying (supposedly, really) for my PHSI 191 paper tmr which will be held during night time (7-8pm). Talk about bad timing! I really hope to start loving the paper (subject) ASAP to enhance my motivation in going through it but I can’t just yet. One day, insyaAllah.

I’ll be glad once it’s done. CHEM 191 will be on Sat tho. When will these exams be over! Huhu. COME ON JAH! SEMANGAT!! Remember the words that have been said by all your loved ones! SEMANGAT.

Ya Allah, please guide me towards the right path. Amin Ya Robbal Alamin.

Cheers, Everyone!

Salam.

the world currently

I know i've literally killed this blog 3 months ago. haha. but recently, i've been having the thot of reviving it up again. not fr the purpose of being glamourous or any of that sort of sh*t. i just wanna prove to myself or to anyone infact... that by bringing this blog up again, i am capable of standing up to whatever happens instead of running away. if... you kno what i mean ;) .

Haha.. honestly, I'm not comfortable posting publically anymore. I find that privacy is just what I need these days but I realised... asking for privacy drives me away from my friends around the globe. It sorts of cause me to be socially inactive. I'm dead in Friendster... in coma in Facebook and half-alive in MSN. Hahaha.

Forgive me. I didn't mean to ignore any of my friends (including rah MD now). It's just that... catching up with you all is just so heavy for me. I admit, it is.. and I was wrong to have promised a part-time service to some of you on the internet. It's just so.. heavy 'cause I have to pile u all up with my current friends and be busy with altoghether. Plus, with the school works stuffing my hand, i'm just... really... antah. it all pushed me to give up in the end and just become inactive or tapis-ed girl. haha pakannn? lurus kah tu. haha.

anyways, 3 months are just too much to cramp up in a post so i'll stop here. but here's an update of my life: holiday from the new Katok school; alone at home; BM & Bio exams coming up; and...... him :)

Zainul Akhir.... Kerbau Ku !!!!!!! heeeeee...

oh ya, maybe ahh m gona start writing dlm malayyy beginning my next post. it's not that i've been feeling so cool using english here or even 80% of my life. i dont think i even want to!! it's just... payah bah bagiku.. my malay is an embarassment! so that's why masih a "maybe".. haha. and if you don't get it, live my life and you'll understand this lil bit pain of mine........

PS. Malas banaaa ku kn men-edit layoutnya ani.. haha.. nanti tah! biar tia bidaaa . Oh and if i've been such an ass for not replying in MSN or Facebook, really2 sorry. hehe... just don't announce my death...... yet ;)

Not at all a good routine / [REC]

The worst thing I hate about holidays is that I have to sleep so frikin’ late. Why is that? WHY? Hahaha. I know right. even this I whine about! Nada kan distresskan lagi bah! Hahaha! Well, at least it hasn’t been worst as it was during the years in KL. I slept at about 4 or 5am. Tsk tsk tsk. And I just can’t remember what I was staying up for!

But it was definitely unhealthy! That was before A-levels tho. And for that, A-levels really know how to discipline you, man. Like, getting a correct daily routine! I mean, that is if you’re so determined into getting a future… ‘cause the only way to succeed is by having that sort of daily routine! So go figure if you need to! :P

So yeah, I woke up with a headache the whole day since I only slept for 4 hours. I’m so not used to this “-__- but I forced myself anyway to wake up early. Part of the TCF syllabus: get up no later than 10am.

Anyways, brought my headache to as far as Muara. If my memory does not fail me, I think it was my first time there. Gila… it reminded me of a bit of an island in Iran mixed with one arah Indonesia! Not making any sense but seriously, the town really did bring me to the past. Mami wanted to bring me over to see some ships sailing by (ada kah??) but Dadi insisted that we should go for the Pantai Serasa instead. So we headed for the Pantai. In the end tho, after getting lost for about 15-20 minutes, we gave up and headed back to Berakas to pick Yum up arah stadium. Hahaha.

I FINALLY GET TO WATCH THIS:

[REC]

THIS MOVIE IS HIGHLY RECOMMENDED! ESPECIALLY TO THOSE FANS OF RESIDENT EVIL OR ANY ZOMBIE-ISH SORT OF GAMES/MOVIES. Ok, being a FORMER horror-game-fanatic… the degree of how scary it was.. is like RESIDENT EVILs + SILENT HILL + CLOCK TOWER = [rec] … I’VE NEVER BEEN SO FRIGHTENED BY SUCH MOVIE. EVEN YUM! It’s mostly RE-ish la… ‘cause it’s more to zombies all within this sealed apartment. CAN YOU JUST IMAGINE THAT??? “SEALED”! How are you gonna survive with all of ‘em chasing after you then? Curious? WATCH IT! HIGHLY RATED AROUND THE GLOBE, YO! I CAN SAY IT’S ONE OF THE BEST HORROR MOVIES OF THE DECADE.

The fact that it was cam corded made it extra effective in bringing us into the screen. I’m not exaggerating. Haha. At least it’s how I felt… as well as Yum jua! She totally totallyyyy underestimated this movie. She had a feeling that it’d be just another common kind but heck! she was screaming here & there just as i was. we even had to watch it with the light open! Hahaha. But it would have been more fun with a bigger screen, bigger sound system and a bigger group of people.

I’d say watch it with a group of people… family or friends because trust me, you’d be more than entertained. Let’s just hope it won’t give any nightmares tho :PPP . Watch it! Take the adventure! GET YOUR ADRENALINE WORKING MORE THAN EVER!! ;P

man, i feel like i'm writing a part of the english exam ''write a handout with the purpose of persuading readers to watch [rec]. 700 words"

lotsalove xx.

ps. sorry if it doesn't match to your liking. i doubt that tho :)

i finally get to breathe

dear readers (if there's even any), sorry to have bored you all with my rather unattractive posts but really, my intention is never to entertain. they're words... one of my treasures that'd keep my memory going till the end of my life. i read this novel, love during the cholera it was named. and the doctor, in its story, mentioned how forgetful people should reside to this habit of noting or jotting down important things on a notebook so that they wouldn't be discouraged or be unjustly tagged as slackers. Being one, i think it's time to jot things (ie. thoughts) before time flies & i lose the millions of memories within me. i'm already starting to lose my childhood ones......

right, stuff to do by the end of the week:

1. watch [rec] before any nightfall!
2. play more with the chickens at our little farm atta back.
3. a lil pics of farm!
4. JOG!
5. get ingredients for cupcakes (and i'm serious, yum!!)
6. finish off the birthday letter :)
7. get this blog ACTIVE!
8. birthday greetings!
9. R E L A X !

hmm... aight, i hope i can really complete all of 'em this time :P .. there's that new year's resolution as well tho.. gaaah~ hahha cam kana paksa saja bah. nyways uhuk uhuk.. lemme just start with my "7th" stuff to do right now... and i hope i'd be loyal to this one.

HAPPY ADVANCED 18th BIRTHDAY, JIKKIE!!!! sure hope you have a wonderful day tmorow which u will :) . ok ok , let's reminisce a lil. i've known jik for about *counting counting* waaa.. 7 years ;P . prolly the only BIS girl i still see around. hahaha. neways, i met jikkie when i was in year 6 arah BIS .. hmm... i remember I was in 6 SUTTON and she was in 6 HEALD, lurus kan jik? :P .. and i remember exactly how her first day went. hmm.. i guess u can call myself a silent observer that day :P .

i was having a Spelling class at the far corner room... yg closest to the Year 6's entrance door. and i remember i was just having a lucky glance whilst listening to Mr. Ferrier's words when I saw her, quite independantly, walking with her father (uncle pakai baju putih!!! ;P) and her 3 siblings. Yeah.. i already had the feeling that she wasn't at all like me (totally dependant). I was so interested to find out what happened to her then but I couldn't afford getting detention for it. hehehe. but i remember that i decided not to let this one go through what i've been through the previous year and promised myself in putting an effort to approach her. hahaha.. i remember my best friend, S**a, got so eeee .. biasalahh kanak2 and decided to break that precious friendship of ours. gaahh..

but anyways, jikkie was, really, the independant sort and i frikin' ADMIRE that special bit of her! hahaha.. well there ya go ziq .. something i never told you! :D hmm... consider that a present ah... CAUSE WHEN It COMES TO YOU, I ALWAYS HAVE PROBLEM GETTING DECISIVE YOUR PRESENTS...yatah i always gave up and just gave you everything i thot of. hahahahaha! :P

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