I have the worst sleeping pattern.

Well, at least I think I do.

it's 1.24am.... fr an old Faezah, that'd be a hell of a time to NOT be sleeping. haha, what a change. my sleeping pattern differs from time to time nowadays. sometimes i sleep in the morning (around 4-5am) till noon and go for the afternoon classes. the sleeping pattern changes again when i would be in bed at normal time the night after that. a friend suggested that this might be the cause of the very irregular (abnormal) pattern of my period but i won't go into that. huhu.

Hands down, I'll admit then... I drank COFFEE this noon/morning (11am). ARGH! why is it that my body cannot tolerate caffeine anymore? You see, once I take it in, I won't be sleeping till the next day how ever tired and restless my mind (and body) would be.

so i've been watching Oh! My Lady. I can't really say much about it but so far, it's been interesting :) . I didn't plan to watch it until I was craving for this classic drama, All About Eve that had Chae Rim in it but since the drama isn't much available online, I decided to check how Chae Rim's been doing and reminded myself of the new drama Oh! My Lady that she's in. So yeah, decided to watch it... especially since she's siding with Choi Si Won (first saw him at 18 vs 29, 2005 movie), the super junior hottieee~. So far, so good.

Aim for the night:

**Sleep at 3.30am

**Epidemiology Tutorial Prep (Might as well just study ae?)

**Watch Oh! My Lady (easiest aim ;D)

Transition.

Hey yaa! (The typical greeting of NZers)

I can't remember when was the last time I updated but imma assume that it's been 2 weeks. I won't gonna be writing formally or much for the day since i only have 15 mins of "break" hehe. Err, Raya's been going on for almost a week now although it doesn't feel very much like it. But really, I don't care anymore :) I'm happy and satisfied with life.

For the past few days, I feel very much high-spirited. I won't gna write why that is and how it's so but let's just leave it at that :) My self-esteem is at its highest since I've been a good girl (I haven't been missing out lectures and I do stuff needed to be done) and I feel satisfied with myself or the one within me. Alhamdulillah!

OR... maybe I'm just saying this from all the caffeine intake I had in the noon..HAHA

I'm kidding. I've been feeling great for the past few days anyway! Unusually great.

That said, I'm scared if this actually means that something (at its worst) is going to happen because seriously, it's just been UNUSUALLY too good or just abnormally peaceful. Nauzubillah.

I guess the drama for the past 2 years (the fact that things happened one after another endlessly) had been too much that I forgot how "normal" life can feel like.

I pray that all of this doesn't mean anything. Amin!

Exams comin' up!
Focus, I shall :)

happiest :D ! / Earthquake / Bad Weather

Despite the "shaking" news about the major earthquake that hit Christchurch, 4.30am yesterday (most damaging since 1933), I have never been this happiest and actually feel THIS good about myself. I am not heartless, mind you. haha, it isn't the tragic event that made me feel so high. it's the amazingly wonderful internet connection that's working so well that i skyped almost 5 hours with my parents :) thankk-kyu-kyu-kyuuuu connection at my parent's computer! My daddy and mummy are the cutest! :)

Anyways, regarding the earthquake, it was 7.4 on the richter scale and alot of buildings were damaged around Chrch. All the seniors are safe tho, thank god. And I thank Allah that we didn't get much impact (4.0-5.0) although we did get some scary shakes. Like seriously, I've only been hit by an earthquake once in my life and that was just a minor one (like it only gets to shake your booty and nothing more). So yeah, I was NOT expecting it and I was smart enough (sarcasm) to be sleeping so late at 4am (30 minutes before the event) and when it hit 4.30... my dream just somehow evolved into me bouncing up and down on my bed as I lay there with my eyes closed. And with that, my heart rate increased to a number I dont think it has ever reached before (except when I hyperventilate) since I thot I was being disturbed by the unseen. And when I peeked to see, I was still bouncing on my bed... and with that, I just closed my eyes and tried to ignore everything. And then, I could suddenly hear everyone leaving their rooms. "Omg-- you guys have it too? my bed's bouncing? WHAT's GOING ON???"

As soon as I heard the last bit, WITHOUT EVEN GIVING THE CHANCE FOR MY BRAIN TO TURN ON COMPLETELY, I ran outside and saw the fear in their faces. And I was still confused about everything. Like, seriously... I thot I was still in a dream and with my heart rate up high, I was shaking madly. Remember when people say DON'T ever think about trying to give a shock or a scare to those who are sleeping as it may give them heart attack? Well, I experienced alot of it but not as BAD as that one. It shocked me to the core. Waking up like that, bouncing up and down, with a sudden jolt, is just so.... scary you know?

Luckily I was on skype with Yum and she saw everything, the bouncing and stuff. When I explained it to her, she calmed me down and I am grateful for that. Love you, Yum! She told me everything's alright... So I went back to sleep... which actually took a while since I needed to calm my heart down first. In the midst of it though, I felt the same bouncing motion again and it was quite terrible and shocking that I woke up with a jolt again! Ya Allah!! And I looked to see if Yum saw it, and thought that maybe it was just me, all traumatic. Turned out, hahahaha, it was a real one bt only happened fr seconds. Frightening experience but how about those at the centre of the earthquake? they must have a lot more frightful stories to share... :(

Weather's terrible. Still is. It was the windiest today. Kesian si LemChop :( since her room is very fragile. Her window shatters so very easily and her door as well so it gets kind of creepy whenever it's windy and just worst when it's the windiest. Oh well, and at Sasa's place, the branch to her tree fell off with a loud smack... kyaa.. must have been scary! Overall, nature is getting all fidgety with us :(

InsyaAllah smuanya akan baik2.

My fcbook: "Tomorrow begins the 2nd half of our LAST semester. Im scared to be honest because the first half didn't go well: I was lazy and unfocused. So I pray to Allah that this will not repeat itself and that once I'm all done with it and ready to go to Brunei, the hardwork is paid for. Ya Allah, mudah2an smuanya akn berjalan dgn lancar dan hambaMu ini tidak akan melupakanMu untuk berjaya, di akhirat dan di dunia. Amin Amin. Let's do this!!!!!"

Today just might be.............

So I was walking around Dunny, right... Wait, I'll start with what Lin2 was telling me (during her usual long steamy shower :P) . She said that the weather was very very unusual as she experienced a sunny day in one second and cloudy the very next when she was walkng towards the gym. Yeah, that quick!

So when I was off to finish my prep at the nearby KODAK photo shop, I was waiting for my picture (for my Raya cards) to get uploaded. And in the middle of that, the shop just suddenly went darker and gloomier in like matter of miliseconds. So I checked outside... and when my eyes hit the clouds, it was too overwhelming for my eyes as the clouds were suddenly filled with bright sunlight again. Gahhh! even my pupils didn't have much time to dilate theirselves!And this happened continually.

So I said (very cooly...) to the shopgirl, "The weather is unusual today, ey...?" Ceeeeeeeehhhh... mcm heroine dlm some sort of mystery its-the-end-of-the-world type of movie sajaaa (eg. Signs, The Happenings, The Day After Tomorrow etc) . Ehehehe, I've been watching M. Night Shiyamalan's movies, I'm glad you noticed ;P .

Irrelevant "-_-

Anyways, so she said, "Yeah.. funny ey? My mum was telling me earlier today that it might just snow tonight. I think itd go down to 2 degrees. But yea, maybe over the mountains only."

Dunny? Snow? Haha.. but it's SPRING? 0_O Anyways, so I continued walking to the PostShop and get my mails for the family sorted out and it was daaaaaaaaamn freezing like seriously, I actually got a headache from all the cold getting into my head. It was like winter all over again. And when I was done at PS (mind you, i was there for only 1-2 minutes), I went out again... and I suddenly felt warm... and maybe hot from the sun. God, it was unusual!

Even from the windows you can check the sun's brightness going on and off. Not a good day fr a walk, I tell you. Nevertheless, the bubble tea was worth it ;) Nyehehehehe

So anyways, wht I've been trying to say is, it might just be the Day that most people look forward to in this Holy Month of Ramadhan... The Day being Lailatul Qadr. But who knows :) It's always unfortunate how my period comes towards the end of the month =/ !

I completed Part 3 (maybe only 70-80% tho). And I shall now start revisiting (or without the re- fr some since I wasn't much alive during the week of its lectures) Part 4. Hagagaga~ And when's the exam, you ask? 10th of Sept. Does that ring any bell? Yep2 T_____T it may just be on Raya's first day.

me want more holiday :( ..

the idiot.

Balik awal?

Less than 10 days to go. I feel very much homesick now that Raya is approaching. How ever far I had always been from Brunei, there was a still a family to celebrate Raya with even though it may not be as grand as it would be in Brunei. So, this is a first to me. And thus, I miss my parents so much.

I hardly talk to my dad nowadays since he's unwell and my mum's busy anyway. And the first question daddy asked me 2 nights ago when I talked to him was "Brapa bulan lagi lai? 2-3? Inda ko dapat balik awal lagi?"

And I said, "Indaa.... :'("

But the truth is, it's a Hehehehehehehehehehehehe ;)

We'll see.

Off to study for BIOC. fudge the paper tho, seriously "-__________-